Everything will be fine..i guess!

Seminggu sudah saya tak update blog, well, ada banyak benda saya telah buat the whole weekend. Last Friday, I've sent my father to klia. He was doing his umrah and hopefully my father and my mom can perform their haj as soon as possible. My mom will do her umrah next month, insyaAllah. Apsal pergi asing-asing? Diorang pergi ikut group, group lelaki pergi dulu headed by Dato' then geng perempuan pulak headed by Datin. Apa-apa jela. 

My pray that my father and all his siblings will get umrah yang mabrur, insyaAllah.

So weekend I just get back lepak time with family.

Routine hidup masih macam biasa dan tiada yang luar biasa cuma kadang-kadang dugaan hidup ini memerlukan kita untuk terus bersabar dan meneruskan kehidupan adalah penting!

Macam myself and life simple aje, balik kerja then mandi ke whatever tidur, esok pergi kerja balik. But in office sometimes politics make me sick. Contoh today, lunch time ada somebody yang belanja boss and the crew means rakan terdekat diorang la. The foods were in pantry! Then staff like me whom nothing to do with politics, tengok jela kut. Unless ada sisa berlebihan, they will ask us makan. Kelakar!

Alhamdulilah, I still have money to go for lunch. Tak kebulur pun. I tak hairan la people! I don't give a damn pun but sometimes it just hurt, that's all which I will never ever forget. Then I realized so much that if you have money, you can buy everything! Yes, almost everything but not friends, not friendship.

I always remind myself bersyukur la ape ada, syukur please tetapi fitrah manusia yang tak pernah nak puas dengan apa yang ada kan. Inside me, ada banyak lgi quality yang I kena improve kan.

And kadang-kadang apa yang kita rancang tu tak seperti yang di harapkan tu yang sedih dan pahit untuk di telan. Yela, with thought that after marriage, life will be ok or better and has no problems was not easy. My marriage is not easy for me. Ada onak duri dan ranjau and some old say biasala, kawin kan! Ye, permulaan yang sangat mencabar. Two different people living in the same roof and sometimes I feel that I have no more freedom as I used to have when I was single. Perasaan biasa kut for a new mom, for a new wife, I guess.

Okla its just too long for me to write today and hopefully everything will be fine, I guess.

marketing

Semalam saya ke kelas marketing. Dr tu (Dr. Zarina if I am not mistaken) ok, buat lawak but I have to be careful jugak sebab I know that this lecturer even they seems nice, attendance kena jaga, kena stood out dalam kelas, kalau tak memang dapat B jela, jangan harap lebih.

I imagine that I am going to be the only one senior dalam kelas tu but there are another senior jugak, Ramai! Ada ina, raja and maya tak datang, hafiz, zura, lin, kak yati, pastu ada a few classmates qmt haritu. Tapi I paling senior sebab 2008 tu! Tak boleh blah! Hahahahah.

I pun dah setelkan my payment for by using epf, so tinggal nak pass the slips to itm je, I nak hantar this friday la kut. Kelas marketing tu overall ok, takde pressure sangat and I am happy.

Harini ada celebration sa yang ke21 tapi I did not bring my camera tapi kalau ada (from camera ofis) I will upload the pictures.

21??? Its very long journey, eheheheeh!

Happy Anniversary company!

email abang ezam pada hari jumaat lepas

Di ofis saya ada seorang abang yang macam pervert, suka nak menggatal dengan staff baru sampai boleh di kategorikan sebagai sexual harassment. Gurau dia yang kadang-kadang staff baru boleh interpret sebagai gatal. Nama dia Ezam. 

Tapi sebenarnya dia takde niat pun dan we get to used his behavior. Maybe for new staff takkan boleh terima that kind of attitude. He sometimes like to email us ntahla tak taula ape benda yang dia cuba sampaikan, macam-macam. Hari ni email dia macamni:-

 

Kadang-kala kita tidak pernah fikir kesusahan orang lain kerana kita hanya sibuk memikirkan tentang kesenangan diri kita sahaja.

Kadang-kala kita hanya memikirkan kesenangan orang lain tetapi kita tidak pernah memikirkan tentang kesusahan mereka oleh kerana sebab itu.

Kadang-kala kita tidak pernah fikir kesusahan orang lain kerana untuk menyenangkan kita kerana kita hanya memikirkan tentang diri... kita sahaja.

Kadang-kala kita hanya fikir kesusahan kita sahaja tetapi apabila kita sudah senang kita tidak memikirkan untuk membantu orang lain.

Wanita yang semakin kaya dengan solehahnya semakin mahal.

Lelaki yang semakin mahal dengan solehnya semakin kaya.

Tetapi mereka akan semakin murah apabila semakin nakal di antara kedua-duanya dan semakin miskin akhlaqnya.

Huhhhh, berbeza sungguh!

Macam takde kena mengena email and the quote tu but its fine. I like the quote. Sometimes thewrong choices bring us the right places. Yup, the wrong choices for me maybe bring me the right place right now kan. We never knew because I never expecting myself to do an accountant job as I prefer to be a lawyer once upon a time.

me and myself

Salam and good morning.

Lately I've been facing emotional disorder (macam orang sakit jiwa la plak). No it is not any psychological disorder ke ape ke just emotional not stable at the moment. 

Sebab utamanya tak dapat habiskan MBA (obviously) plus my daughter cirit-birit hari tu. Then semlam Khamis I dapat gastrik. I punya perangai if I stress, I akan dapat gastrik. Eh, apa kaitan? Yes, it is true, kalau anda terlampau stress, ia akan mengakibatkan gastrik. Eh, apa-apa la

So today, I go to office and tried to cheer up a little bit.

I start working here (SA) 3rd January 2007 and dah 5 years gone. This year it is gonna be 6 years of commitment. Sebenarnya I dah fed up and bosan counting numbers, buat full sets of account then end up every month doing report for the sake of five years. I am boring!

Therefore, I continue my MBA dengan harapan sebesar-besarnya untuk berhenti dan buat lecturing. Then after I still have to carry out one more paper, I was like, aaarrrghhhhhhhh!!

"Tanda-tanda seseorang mengalami stress juga boleh dikesan melalu psikologikal yang ditunjukkan seperti mudah berasa bimbang, keliru, kurang daya tumpuan, sukar kawal diri, sukar hendak tidur, perubahan emosi seperti sering berasa kecewa, mewujudkan permusuhan, rasa tidak berdaya, cepat marah, & lemah semangat"

Ni I quote from one blog (I cannot remember). I just wanted to highlight the issues on mewujudkan permusuhan. Knowing me memang I am not the type of mewujudkan permusuhan tapi I guess 5 years kerja kat sini merubah the whole me.

Situasi pagi tadi:-

Kak A (poyo kakak ni sebab dia ingat dia lawa. : Eeeeee, apsal awak pakai tudung bawal? Igat macam Norjuma ke

Me  : Eh, suka hati sayala, tudung bawal ke ape ke

Kak A pun pergi dengan muka poyo. Depan orang ramai saya sound tepek dia.

Pastu tiba-tiba Zana (ofismate) cakap 'Dee, apsal ko pakai tudung bawal? Pakai la tudung pari ke'?

(Ni mengejek ni)

Dee jawab 'Eh suka hati akula nak pakai tudung bawal ke apa ke, ko tu baru pakai tudung tak sampai setahun dah kecoh'

Dee dan Zana ketawa, tapi memang di dengari Miss S yang BFF dengan Kak A.

So, what do you expect? I memang nak sangat pun Miss S bagitau Kak A sebab tak kisahla orang suka saya ke tak.

Memang sikap I dah berubah dari dulu sampai sekarang. Dulu, nak cerita mengumpat ni bukan myself la, I bukan jenis mengumpat sana sini, tapi sejak kerja ni, dah jadi hobi pulak sebab  seronok plak mengumpat kan (syaitan syaitan!!!!)

I macam dah boleh accept la I have to repeat marketing paper because I wanted to get better cgpa insyaAllah and it will look good into my portfolio right?

I cerita pun macam dah lompat-lompat. Tapi mewujudkan permusuhan tu sebenarnya ada kene mengena dengan my studies. Since I pun dah banyak sakitkan hati orang, I promise myself to be a better person, to be good, to mengurangkan umpat, keji orang lain sebab agaknya ini semua balasan yang Tuhan bagi sebab perangai I yang dah banyak berubah. Tambahkan amalan ibadat and respect to others. So biarlah apa orang buat kat I, I will remail like past, biar je. Less hurt people and less hurt myself.

I just hope berkat doa mak ayah to me and my family, our family akan ceria, akan bertambah rezeki dan diberkati Allah. I also hope that my hubby will be diberikan rezeki Allah and success in his business. I know he struggle with his business, company debt, support family and all those stuff. 

Azam tahun lepas untuk habiskan MBA masih tak tercapai so I forward to this year. From now on, my resolution this year will be (belum lambat lagi kan?):-

1) Habiskan MBA

2) Pregnant on May because I wanted to deliver baby on February 2013. Hahahaha. Ni takkan di postpone!

3) Kelas kan habis June 2012 so result akan keluar on August/Sept. Dapat je result I akan apply for lecturer. I dun want to think about PhD first. If my husband's business run well, I will continue studies, if it isn't I will apply for lecturing.

4) Kumpul duit sebab nak hantar Marsya play school on January 2013 (3thn)

Tadi masa I jumpa admin gbs, she advice me that everything yang terjadi ni ada hikmahnya so kena terima and lebih berhati-hati pada masa hadapan. I nak move forward, I won't move backward and promise to myself that I will do everything and whatever it takes to finish what I've started. Nak jadi isteri solehah dan ubah diri sendiri, jadi lebih baik, aminnnn.

Huhhhh, so now, I nak sambung balik kerja-kerja ofis yang tertangguh ni dan I nak siapkan kerja bersunnguh-sungguh. Enjoy life and appreciate for what I have!

Daaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! Happy weekends!

                                     

what women want

Hi, today is women's day (schedule entry) and I've red and article combining celebrities of women and asking them what women want. Basically I would say women needs many many things! Women creature are hard to be satisfied (I mean things eh not sex) Sex maybe in the second place kut, uhhhhhhhh! One of the celebrities was the famous blogger, vivy (proudduck).

They (the women) has many different views, different thinking and needs. 

This article asked them 5 same questions and below was the article:-

Today is International Women’s Day, and we want this day to be all about women ... and what women want.

And what better way to find out what women deem important than to just ask them.

We started the ball rolling by posing five questions to these six women on what matters to them. They represent a new generation of women who are confident and talented, and who are not afraid to define for themselves who they are and what they want to be.

They don’t adhere to conventional wisdom, and shrug off old stereotypes.

Beauty queen Soo Wincci is set on going all the way to Hollywood, and is preparing for the big time by pursuing her PhD in business so she will be able to manage her own career. Between the make up sessions and shoots, Soo was sharing tips with the newly-crowned Miss Malaysia-Universe Kimberley Leggett, and their conversation revolved around how important it is to pursue tertiary studies.

Singers Liyana Fizi and Elvira Arul are dedicated to their music, and they have stayed faithful to their respective genres because that’s where their hearts lie.

Vivy Yusof is pint-sized but big on dreams and entrepreneurial spirit. The British law graduate eschewed the usual career route and set up an online shop with a partner.

Phillipa Yoong won her first gold medal in water skiing at the Jakarta Sea Games when she was 18, and grabbed another two medals at the recent Sea Games after a 15-year hiatus and giving birth to two daughters.

Whatever their chosen path, and wherever it has led them, these six women maintain that what matters most to them are their loved ones and pursuing their passions.

We’d also like our women readers to tell us what they want, so please share with us your answers to the five questions (see Your turn now on page 3).

Liyana Fizi

Liyana Fizi, 29, is the darling of the independent music scene, charming local music lovers since her time as the frontwoman of Estrella. She recently released her first solo album Between The Lines. She tweets at twitter.com/liyanafizi.

1. What makes you happy?

Being surrounded by love of family and friends, making music, and making travel plans.

2. What is most important to you now?

The most important thing to me, is to keep learning new ways to live my life to its full potential.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

At 19, the most important thing to me then was finishing my degree, and to start earning my own money.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

The top item would be to see the world while playing music.

5. I want ... An electric guitar.

Elvira Arul

Elvira Arul, 31, is a jazz singer who hit the musical stage last year as the co-lead in Dreamgirls... a long way from the days of busking in her college. She is passionate about her music, and championing various causes. She recently shaved her head in support of people with cancer, as it is a cause that is close to her heart. Follow her on twitter attwitter.com/elvirasoul.

1. What makes you happy?

A smile. A hug. A look, these things make me happy. Spending time with my loved ones. Music :)

LOVE! Love makes me happy ... and pandas!

2. What is most important to you now?

Love. My parents. My partner. My family. Music. God. Standing up for the voiceless.

People loving each other and showing it outwardly. People not judging each other, but helping each other out.

3.What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Everyone and everything! My career, what people thought of me (now only what my loved ones think of me matters), God. Church.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

Singing with all my favourite artistes in my lifetime. Getting more empathy for issues pertaining to women’s plights!

For cases of violence against women to be zero!

For our sexual rights to be on par with the world.

For there to be no more people dying from cancer.

5. I want ...

For there to be more empathy in the world.

For human beings to show more love to one another.

For the homeless to have a roof over their heads, shelter from the storm, and food in their tummies.

For children to have a childhood!

Kimberley Leggett, 18, is embarking on an exciting journey. The teenager has moved to Kuala Lumpur from Penang to live on her own, and will be starting college soon ... and working hard to prepare for the Miss Universe pageant later this year. Follow her ontwitter.com/kimmyleggs.

1. What makes you happy?

Simple pleasures are the world’s greatest indulgences, I feel. Whether it be a long bath after a hard day’s work, watching TV or being surrounded by family and friends at celebrations or for dinners. I think it’s when my life is in equilibrium – it’s stress free, and in balance.

2. What is most important to you now?

My family and friends. Without them, I wouldn’t have a firm foundation or wonderful support. No success would have been achieved without them, and it’s their shoulders to cry on, their hugs and their encouragement which have picked me up each time I thought I couldn’t go on.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Ten years ago I was eight, ha ha, so I think then it would have been doing well in school, playing with my pets, having a lot of friends, and not being too mischievous! Simple things that an eight-year-old would find important or to be the world’s biggest problems – school, friends and getting into trouble!

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

There are so many things on it! Top of the list is probably, get killer abs for Miss Universe 2012 this year(!) Speak five languages, visit the seven wonders of the world, Christian Louboutin shoes, completing a marathon ... the list goes on really, it’s a rather deep bucket. :)

5. I want … To always be happy, no matter what life throws at me. As there’s “always sunshine after the rain” as they say, my hope is that all women in Malaysia can take this day as a time to celebrate their smile!

Phillipa Yoong

Phillipa Yoong, 33, is under the blazing sun and in the water at least three times a week. The water skier who recently won double gold medals at the Palembang Sea Games trains even more frequently nearer competitions. And even if she retires from competition, Yoong says she will stay active because it’s a way of life for her. The mother of two is also the president of Ibu, a family resource group. She tweets at twitter.com/pcyoong.

1. What makes you happy?

Playing with my kids. Reading a good book.

2. What is most important to you now?

A happy, healthy and loving family.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

The next party.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

More time with my husband and for my husband – he’s really busy!

5. I want ... World peace, an end to all suffering, healthy food and for everyone to join the slow food movement.

Vivy Yusof

Vivy Yusof, 26, likes nice things and shopping, and has channelled that passion into running the largest online shopping site in Malaysia, fashionvalet.net.

It has been a lot of hard work, but the British graduate thrives on the challenge of gathering local designers on her site. She writes a monthly column on fashion for The Star’s R.AGE, and tweets attwitter.com/vivyyusof.

1. What makes you happy?

Good sleep! With work and all, we tend to take rest and sleep for granted, but this won’t be good in the long run. I always feel sluggish when I don’t have enough rest or sleep.

2. What is most important to you now?

Slowly I am learning that the most important thing to me is health. I am hearing more and more people my age having cancer, and I feel that I should respect myself more to strike a balance between work and play. We can be millionaires but if we are too sick to enjoy the fruits of our labour, there really is no point. Work hard, but know when your body is aching.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Handbags.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

I am pretty greedy so my bucket is pretty deep. Among the things I want is a happy family, good health, an awesome career, a successful online shopping business, and being able to afford a comfortable lifestyle on my own. The material things like more clothes and handbags goes without saying, but all of that will come with hard work. Oh! I also would like to travel more often.

5. I want ... A balanced lifestyle. I want to be able to divide my time between work, family, friends and me time.

Soo Wincci

Soo Wincci, 26, has calluses on her palms, and her legs bear bruises from pole dancing. But it’s a small price to pay to get her fit and ready to break into the Taiwanese entertainment scene later this year. She recently released her Chinese album, and will be launching her Malay EP soon. Her web site is soowincci.com, and she tweets at twitter.com/soowincci.

1. What makes you happy?

Making others happy.

2. What is most important to you now?

Passion and goals in life.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Family.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

To make Malaysia proud.

5. I want... to achieve all my dreams and goals in life and keep pushing my limits to higher levels from time to time.

So what actually I want? Let me answer those questions:-

1. What makes you happy?

I am happy if all my routine and what i plan goes smoothly, in order and no delay

2. What is most important to you now?

It is important for me to look good, to being pretty all the time so that my confidence level will be high and no way of depressed and down, being respect by others and be able to share my experiences to junior

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

10 years ago, it is really important for me to get in the serious relationships because I really feel with an honest relationships, we will have some inspiration in our lives to move and something to achieve besides to have a very good family (which I already have) and bunches of goods friends (to enjoy!!)

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

Currently, I want more salary because:-

1) Planning to have added family (preggie by this year)

2) To send my daughter to play school

3) To finish my marketing paper (and MBA too)

4) To have own car (currently share it with husband)

5) To have bhuge wardrobe with fully vogue-fashionable dress etc, bunches of colour handbags and shoes so I can match them with my outfits, branded make-up, hohohohoho!

5. I want...to be more happy in life, thankful to Allah for what I have. Always remember phrase of hadith which means "Bagaimana anda mahu mandapat rezeki lebih besar jika anda tidak tahu mensyukuri nikmat kecil yang Allah beri" 

Subhanallah, bersyukur dengan apa yang ada!

the world has not end yet

Morning. 

The title shows how frustrated myself was. I've wrote earlier that I already finished my MBA but accidently according to the system portal I have one more paper to attend, means the status not yet end. How?

I took my marketing paper early 2009 and I've got B- and it wrote LB (lulus bersyarat). According to my intellectual, I do have to repeat this paper 'if' I do not grad with 3 pointer. Then when I received my exam result slips, it note with LU which means lulus la kan, wat de hel, ape lagi?

Suddenly, I am not yet grad because I didn't take my marketing paper (as in the portal). I do email admin of AAGBS regarding to this and took me quit some time. I email her on 22nd February 2012 and she replies me today (6th March 2012). I do understand that she got to do a lot of things and got to attend so many students. 

She says that I'm going to repeat the paper as the current semester (when I was in part 2) I only got 2.78 and therefore I have to reseat for it.

My query were;-

1) Why is in my exam result slips state LU?

2) Why I dunno I have to repeat this paper from the beginning?

3) Why when I met her (she actually register for me all subject last semester) she told me that I am going to finish?

4) What is the hell you people you're coming from? Are you all working or eat at 10 am, 4pm????

Duhhhhh!!!!

This is her email to me:-

Assalamualaikum
Terlebih dahulu mohon maaf kerana mengambil masa yang terlalu lama untuk menjawab e-mail sdri.  

Setelah disemak di dalam sistem ISIS UiTM, sdri mendapat B- (LB) bagi subjek MKT750.  Sekiranya CGPA yang sdri perolehi semester tersebut ialah 3.00 ke atas, sdri adalah dikira lulus dan tidak perlu mengulang subjek tersebut.  


Tetapi CGPA sdri adalah 2.78, bermakna sdri PERLU MENGULANG subjek tersebut.
Oleh itu tindakan sdri mengambil subjek tersebut pada semester ini adalah wajar.


Sekian.  Sekiranya sdri mempunyai sebarang masalah, saya boleh dihubungi seperti talian di bawah.  Terima kasih. 

Ok fine with it!!!!!

Fine 

Fine

Fine

I am so damn frustrated and yet I am not interested to further my PhD in the same uni. I am not!

Yes people, I am not!!!!!!

Gosh, I am so angry.

I don't know with who?

My self? My uni? My life? The admin? Fate?

I dun know.

If its the faith, I have to accept.

Right now, I am just wanted to cry, that's all.

But, after all, I need to move on, and step into reality.
I need it, need it so much, just take it cool.
Pray that mu husband will be stronger with me.

If I tak grad with Aisyah, Fini I will grad with Mija, Maya, Zura.
And dengan Su (EMBA) jugak kan?
So after all, still grad jugak kan?
Owhhhhhhhh!!!!!

lisa dan yusry

Hari ni saya ke blog uncleseekers sebab nak tengok what he will comment about wedding lisa and yusry. Tapi takde yang berkenaan sangat, mungkin beliau tidak mahu komen. Kemudian saya jumpa pula blog 'abah' aka s.h. alattas. Lalu saya terjumpa pasal wanita jendul yang disebut sh sebagai Volkswagen. Hahahaha. Kelakar!

Saya tak pasti apa yang di maksudkan mereka dengan dahi Volkswagen tapi aya adalah jendul! Oppssss!!! Apa-apa jela sh.

Kemudian review pula ke blog jalabiya, saje mahu tengok apa yang ada. Dan betula, Kak Fiza sedang mencari pekerja. Gaji rm800. Handphone sudah hilang dan ada post kelas manik di situ.

Saya ke gilttertatoo, owner bercerita pasal bagasi anak perempuannya. Too much talk on herself, her daughter, that's all. Dan dah lama juga Lisa tidak update blognya. Betul-betul dedikasi nampknya di company baru. Saya ke liyana's blog, sangat cute anaknya! Steph pulak still hot mummy!!! What a life! Dia selalu kena kutuk, but who's care? Her life kan? She's happy why we bother? Tapi she is my inspiration to maintain my body!

Kemudian baca pula pasak gambar tatu erykah yang ada nama Allah. Hai, macam-macam! Dunia ni.

Eh, melalut dari topik.
Saya cuma mahu bercerita sebelum lisa dan yusry, perkahwinan erra dan yusry was wedding of the year!
Masih ingat lagi pada masa itu siap cd ada dujual macam mana mereka bertemu, dilakonkan oleh zul yahya dan sharifah haslinda.

Kalau tak silap is either Lisa or Ana (ex uitm melaka) yang beli cd tu and kitorang tengok ramai-ramai. Pastu cerai.

Then sekarang wedding mereka harap kekal ke akhir hayat sebab banyak sangat spekulasi pasal yusry tu so harap khabar angin tu semua tak betul la kan.

Ni pic lisa and yusry, cute kan? Kredit to beautifulnara.