24th Ramadhan

Hari ini dah genap 24th Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah puasa belum lagi tertinggal. Rezeki Allah bagi supaya dapat berpuasa penuh pada tahun ni. Syukur rasanya. Semalam I got this 'emo feelin' which I dunno how to describe it. Tiba-tiba jadi sensitive to all things.

Susah nak cakap, susah nak gambarkan. Apkah ini tanda-tanda nya??? Apakah? Hahahahahah..  Itu kut yang buat emosi tak stabil..

Agaknya la kut! Tapi masih manjadi teka teki sampai sekarang la. Its ok, I will update about 'that thing' later.

Mood nak raya dan bercuti dah start datang dah pagi-pagi Isnin ni. Haiyaaaa..malasnya nak bekerja and I already start cuti this Friday

Tapi sebelum tu I already promise all staff/ boss to prepare for half month salary. Baik kan I? Hahahaaha. It's company's money

I only prepared it, maaaa! Sementara nak menunggu report sampai, I still need to do some 'accountant' things. 

Nak tengok apa lagi tak settle and everything. Muak tak bekerja? Masih lagi muak tapi hidup mesti di teruskan kan? It's life!

Sometimes susah nak predict perangai orang. Ada orang rasa dia dah best sangat tapi sebenarnya tak pun. Susah nak jumpa orang yang sincere, humble sekarang ini. Semua nak tunjuk diri masing-masing best, nak up selagi boleh.

Kalau part kerja pulak, ada orang rasa kerja dia la yang paling best and perfect and orang lain selalu salah. Tu pun pening jugak nak face and ada pulak orang yang duduk tak buat kerja pun ada jugak. Jadi, kesimpulannya, nobody is perfect and even we think we are we are totally wrong. 

Hampir kepada kesempurnaan tu mungkin ada tapi tetap ada cacat celanya. hanya ALLAH yang sempuran sifatnya. 

Wallahualam.

Update on Me

My life was still at the same lately. No changes, but I guess a lot more happier, amin. 

My class almost end, only I got one assignment to finished. Convo!!!

My marriage also in the same mood and we are also trying to be a better person, everyday!  I got a strong support from husband, my life is bless. It is 21/2 years on 12.06.2012.

It just started, sometimes it got complicated, sometimes it's fun.

I got to no comment on tiring, penatla cakap 'penat!'. I got more energy than before.

I try to eat a healthy food, sleep and wake up on the same time, put in schedule in everything I do and I got less exhausted.

Less carbohydrate and more vitamin C.

Actually it happen last Monday night, after class, we all went for dinner, in Batu 3 Shah Alam and then we all ate keropok lekor.

Balik je rumah me and Marsya habis teruk satu badan kena gatal. It's already late night, so we decided to wait till morning to go to clinic.

Satu malam, all I've heard is that crying from a daughter and I was scratching all over my body.  When I woke up early in the morning, rashes was all over my body, hands and stomach area. It is because of the scratching. Marsya is ok, sikit je kena and after took medicine, I send her to Lemon.

I was being advice to eat less-protein food and avoid eggs, seafoods and etc untillllllll...I was recovered.

Entahla since I cut-off many foods for past few days, I feel more energize.

Then, if we go for dinner, since I only ate certain things, my stomach feel very relief.

And I got a good sleep than before.

Every morning I drink one bottles of plain water for recovery.

And I try to put a slice of lemon into it. Ada dengar la cakap kalau nak kurus pagi-pagi minum air suam with a slices of lemon.

Harap menjadila kan. I was not expecting kurus kering macam supermodel ke hape, just nak kempiskan perut part je.

Moreover, I just want to feel confidence and get a better life.

One more thing, I did skip my gym class. Dah berapa bulan tak pergi, it such a waste! I have to workout la kan. Once in the moonlight ke pun takpe.

And another thing that bother us lately both of us already bored to eat outside. Dah bosan.

So we decided to cook by our own.Tak taula jadi ke tak rancangan ni tapi barang dapur dah beli, so no harm to try. Plus I got another project to do - siapkan langsir rumah. 

Anddddddd, rancangan untuk preggie lagi masih di teruskan even last time plan tak jadi. Hahahahaha

Oh Hati

Kadang -kadang hati kecil ini sukar di mengerti. Sedih pada perkara-perkara yang tak sepatutnya tak patut berlaku rasanya.

Sedih pada perkara-perkara remeh. Tapi siapa aku mahu mengelak pada hati. Ianya datang sendiri.

Pergi pun sendiri. 

Masa akan menyembuhkan, InsyaAllah. 

Allah lebih mengetahui. Hati jadila Engkau seorang yang bersih yang baik dan jauhkan aku dari segala perbuatan buruk. 

Sesungguhnya aku adalah lemah.

Ya Allah, jadikanlah hambaMu ini insan yang bersyukur, yang mengerti bahawa kehidupan ini sudah di tentukanMu

Semua isi tersurat dan tersurat adalah HakMu. Aku cuma menuruti langkah, untuk menjadi insan lebih bersyukur dan suatu hari nantiakhirat adalah tempatku. Dunia ini adalah perjuanganku dan jadikanlah aku seorang yang kuat demi perjuanganku. 

Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku isteri dan anak yang solehah, ibu yang mithali dan anak-anaku adalah anak solehah yang dapat mendoakan untukku di akhirat kelak. Aminnnnnnn

Snow White Review

Last night I and my lovely husband watched this movie. It ok, I loved it but, as said by husband 'Why Kristen Stewart?' Yes, why Kristen Stewart????

Charlize Theron was so amazing, real, super natural. Kristen Stewart like errrrr stone. Aduhai! Reaction muka fail, comel also fail, the mirror must be wrong I guess! Hahahaahahah. Whatever it is, it's shock sebab the 'real prince' for Snow White adalah seorang duda yang bekas kaki mabuk and judi (Huntsman) not the child love for her (William).Okey, serious tak faham!

I like the story teller part but not the actress. Entah kenapa I think that why they didn't gave the Snow White to Natalie Portman. She is lovely kan. Hmmmmmmmmm

Revenge Season 1 Finale

Revenge Season 1 dah habis malam semalam. It's really unexpected and unpredictable and I loved it so much. Yela, kadang-kadang cerita yang dah tau ending seems tak interesting kan? So I am waiting patiently the second season which I have no idea when it will be showing. Ada orang tau tak? Heheheheeheh

So, kesimpulannya, harapan ku agak punah jugak la sebab nak tengok Jack and Ems (Emily/Amanda) to be together tak kesampaian. Baru excited nak tengok scene Ems ke rumah Jack, eh tiba-tiba ada pulak Amanda fake tu kat situ but you know how they make us can't wait to watch for the second one. Let say if Jack and Amanda was together in first season, dah tak interesting la cerita tu kan?

It was damn good story after all. For fun and I was enjoy the whole series. Ok, bila nak keluar second season nih!!!!!

Avengers

This month I went for Avengers movie. Kinda a interesting tapi macam Shaq kata apsal Hulk sama tinggi dengan Iron Man. Kenapa jugak la Hulk tu jadi normal bila jadi Hulk. Bukan ke kalau dia jadi Hulk dia kan lupa everything?????

Tapi apa pun Avengers tetap best. And I loved so much Iron Man!!!!! Wewittttttttt!

Captain America and Thor. Captain America ni takde pun takpe. Hahaahah. Thor hensem!

Oh my hero, Iron Man. kalau Iron Man sensorang pun dia boleh menang. Heheheehhehehe

The World of Mom

Since I amik Marsya from my mom and decide to take her by my self (helping from hubby of course), I am damn tired. Yes, sebulan ni I was so exhausted sangat, rasa macam tulang-tulang ni dah all broken. Hahahaaahaha.

Lepas balik kerja, all my life dah dedicate to Marsya. Kadang-kadang tak sempat buat apa pun just mandi and sleep and play with her. Read with her la apela, susun boxes apela, dan buat apa sahaja. Dan semua akan nampak interesting to her kalau kita main dengan dia.

Ok, I get it my daughter, in the other words 'Don't let me play alone or I will become tantrum!' Understood!

I learn that apa-apa sahaja perangai anak kita adalah mirror to us. Cermin diri ibu bapanya. Contoh, Marsya bila marah sekarang sudah pandai hentak kaki. It's mine, I admit it. Marsya kalau nak tidur cari buku. It's her daddy's. My husband says kalau tak boleh tidur dia akan cari buku sebab bila membaca dia akan mengantuk. Hahahahaah. Marsya suka marah. It's your daddy again. Marsya becok like daddy. Marsya suka makan biskut  like me. I love biscuits. 

Ok, enough la bout her. I nak cakap pasal 'kepenatan' myself yang dah tertanggung dah ni. I truly deeply penat. Tak larat. Entahla, kenapa penat sangat since Friday tu padahal Sabtu tak kerja.Bila I cakap dengan my husband jawapan dia 'You ni tak habis-habis penat' 'Dah memang I penat' Ok, I pun tak mahu mengalah jugak. I am not superwomen okey and I will not pretend I am a supermom.

Tula laki ni tak boleh bagi muka sangat. Kalau dah kerja diorang tolong kumpul baju kotor, put in washing machine, sidai and angkat. I takkan bagi muka. Let them do their duty. I akan lipat and gosok them.

Tiba-tiba kan I terbaca satu blog mummy izz macamtula blog dia. Banyak benda yang fikirkan, I realize.

Kadang-kadang I selalu komplen kat my husband, bila business you nak okey ni, bile I boleh dapat macam apa yang I dapat macam before kahwin dulu? Selalunya jawapan husband, 'Sabarlah, I tengah usaha'. My husband jarang jarang jarang marah I. Dia selalu membebel contoh, tak tutup air dalam bilik air, tak tutup suis lampu which for me remeh. I yang selalu marah dia balik kalau dia tegur I. I akan cakap"Dah you tau I tak tutup suis, you tutuplah, bisinglah you!'

Selalunya husband senyap je. Jarangla nak marah balik and dia jenis sedaya upaya akan beli apa I nak kalau dia ada duit. Tak pernah berkira.Kat rumah kitorang pun dah cukup dah barang-barang rumah yang ada. Kalau nak tambah, tambah carpet jela kut. Sebab my husband dah beli masa awal kahwin dulu. Jadi, rasanya tak perlu la I nak merungut dengan life I ni. 

Anak pun attach dengan daddy nya, which I boleh buat kerja rumah bila balik kerja sebab dua beranak tu boleh tengok tv dengan amannya.

Eh, cerita pasal blog tu, I rasa memang tempat dia meluahkan perasaan dia la. Memang ada entry dia cerita pasal laki dia, and I am so grateful that my husband absolutely NOT like that. My husband full of rumors and suka sakat I. Tak sempurna hidup dia kalau tak menyakat bini dia. My husband tak suka merungut, I am the grumpy one, hahaahahah. My husband was easy going and I take my life seriously. I work hard especially dalam studies I, I buat MBA sebab nak improve diri I which my husband support and selalu cakap 'Untung ada pelajaran'. My husband belajar diploma multimedia graphic from cosmopoint (sekarang KLMU), bagi I dah cool dah. Tapi graphic ni tak menjanjikan kekayaan. It's ok husband, long way to go, rezeki you tak sampai lagi, sikit lagu je ni.

And dia ni (blogger) selalu sakit, tapi selalu dia tak amik berat sakit dia. Doc dah suruh further kat hospital, dia tak pergi check lagi. Kalau I dah meroyan pergi dah hospital. Diorang ada 4 anak lelaki and husband dia selalu merungut sebab anak diorang nakal. Hello, dah tau anak tu lelaki of course la nakal, empat pulak tu. Adoiiiii, laki oh laki. If I was in her place, sumpah dah lama kena tinggal laki tu.Nasib baiklah bukan I yang kena kahwin dengan laki tu. 

Tapi takpela, that's was her life. Dia yang hadap laki dia dan mungkin banyak kelebihan suami dia yang dia tak tulis. With four heroes in the family maybe his husband naik angin. Even dengan Marsya sorang pun dah cukup menguji kesabaran parents nya kan? Do not compare your life with others because you have no idea what's on their journey.

I salute dengan blogger tu (mummy izz), I do really admire you, your strength, you!

I pun kadang-kadang bila I penat, I komplen, my husband never complaint me back. I anak seorang pun penat, ni kan pulak empat, tak tahulah. Kena jaga alone pulak tu sebab husband dia was in Johor. Long term relationship. I nak  masak, husband cakap tak payahla, kita makan luar je. I . Okey, part ni paling best sebab tak payah masak. Hahahaahah. Marsya pun makan kat luar sebab Marsya makan sepah husband tak nak rumah sepah-sepah. So, kan senang kalau ada persefahaman.Husband cakap kalau ada maid lainla, nak kena kemas each time Marsya makan sebab anak kecil tu nak makan sendiri and we all selalu bagi kebebasan untuk dia makan by her own. Dia suka, let her do what she likes kan. Kalau terlampau straight nanti tak independent pulak anak. So, ada benda kitorang bagilah dia kegembiraan kan. Tak salah kan. 

And I tak bagi my husband keluar malam. No way. Bukan queen control tapi malam spend la quality time dengan anak. Okey, nak keluar tunggu anak tidur dulu. And soalan I 'Kenapa you nak keluar?' 'Penting ke?' And selalunya husband akan terus terang cakap 'Eh, apsal soalan you annoying sangat eh' I cakap 'I tanya je.' Hahahaahah. Selalunya husband keluar malam sebab ada benda pasal dia nak discuss camtula. Kalau tak dia memerap je sambil tengok HBO ke Star World ke, heheeheheh. He loves watching tv so much!

Me? Kalau takde benda nak buat, together gether dengan husband tengok tv sambil tu buat conclusion cite tu. Hahaahahahhahah. Itula sebenarnya world of mom. Husband and children. I mean Marsya. Kesabaran kena tinggi. Husband and wife kenala saling memahami kan? Okey, malam ni bukan malam Jumaat, hahahhhahaahahh!!