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"THE RAINBOW AFTER THE RAIN"

God never promise us a good life on earth;
but He gave the assurance that there will always
be a rainbow after the rain.

Life on earth is not always what we expected
and wanted it to be. But if we can put our
trust in God, He can sail us through definitely.

God never let us bear what is impossible;
and He makes sure what we bear is the
limit that we can take without much difficulty.

After the rain, things will be changed;
everything on earth seems to be new
and clean. With these renew scenario,
we should be:

- a more positive and courageous person
as indicated by the RED of the rainbow;

- a creative, thoughtful and joyful person
as indicated by the ORANGE of the rainbow;

- an intelligent, confident and logical person as
indicated by the YELLOW of the rainbow;

- a renewed, generous and practical person as
indicated by the GREEN of the rainbow;

- a peaceful, sincere and responsible person as
indicated by the BLUE of the rainbow;

- a relaxed, devoted and wise person as
indicated by the INDIGO of the rainbow;

and last but not least, a spiritual and idealistic
person as indicated by the VIOLET of the rainbow.

 Author: Maple

It Is Time NOW!

Last three days I have a small discussions with husband. He is actually in the middle of project amende entah and I asked him "If this project didn't succeed what are you going to do?" and he answered me "Boleh jangan bagi soalan cepu emas petang-petang camni?" Soalan yang di balas soalan. 

Then, it may took some times for him to think ke apa kan, yesterday he told me " Samada jadi ke tak projek I ni, you boleh buat apa you nak. Kena struggle la, tapi selama ni pun kita struggle kan". Yessssssss...it is actually the answer that I want to hear.

Sebenarnya, the reason that I still did not want to continue studies is because he asked me to stay at my work for a while because he just scared that his business does not run well.

If I go for studies, he will the only one to pay everything. Since lately he believe that he could support us, I should grab this opportunity la because all this while pun I cuma dapat cakap-cakap and tulis-tulis kat blog that I wanted to further my studies tapi tak buat jugak kan.

Mak pun asyik support and asked me to sambung la, she really supportive la kan. Soooooo, here we goo! Started to do proposal. NOW!

Adui penatnye

Yesterday, i went out with family and four of us had dinner at Aeon Big. Bukan jauh sangat pun and no special dinner pun. It just dah lama tak keluar sebab nak bawa extra handbag sekarang aduhai. I was just about to have fun la with kids and I realize that both of them (adik and Marsya) was begging for my attention sooooo much. 

Hasisshhh, tak tahula apasal diorang berdua tu sikit-sikit mummy. Adik pantang nampak I was about to wear tudung every morning mula dah hek hek hek sana sini. Kakak pulak dan dan nak mummy dukung ke kerete padahal all these while pun daddy kan yang dukung. 

I was looking at myself and find I am no more attractive. Hahahahahah. And all time I was so quiet and have no mood on conversation with daddy. tak taula apsal tiba-tiba mood swing. I am so tired of everything. TIRED

Ramadhan has gone and Syawal comes like a thunder you know. It fast. It just about a blink and here is Syawal.

I have gone through strict diet during Ramadhan but Syawal has spoiled everything. My tummy was become bigger than ever!

During Ramadhan, I started to develop a hobby. For me, as individual, we should find a hobby to fill our free time. 

Honestly, I don't have any free time, I tell you people, but after sahur I found that there is a one sweet time for me to do something.

I sew manik (beads) to all my baju raya. Hahahahah. I used to love beads but this year fashion is more to renda (lace) which paste on the baju kurung arm / chest. Its glam you'll. 

I am also trying to started sewing again. Buka balik mesin jahit yang mak hadiahkan masa kahwin hari tu. If I am not trying now, sampai bila-bila pun tak kan buat, so I take baby step to it. Alteration to Marsya punya tudung. Potong and jahit tepi and tambah flower, tadaaaaaaaa!!! I should be proud of myself. 

Yesterday, I got terrible flu and day after (Monday) I got one and half day MC (Monday 1/2 day). I stayed at home, send kids to their nanny / nursery. Then, I started to do house work and after kids come back, I got so tired and nagging to Marsya all about how tired I am. She asked me "Mummy ni kenapa?" Each time I got tired and I have to do house work, my face will change automatically and she usually understand what am I going through and tried to behave and help me. Bukan tolong, tolong sepahkan lagi ada. Deep down inside me memang touching sangat kalau dia start to ask me why. I knew that she is going to be a big girl and I tried to hide my emotion and show only good feelings to her. Whatever it is a bad day ke hape ke I tried to show her less bad emotions. I am afraid that she will grow emotionally. I just wanted her to be happy. Everytime her dad scold her, I will try not to and calm her down so that she knew I will there for her in no matter what had happen. Nowadays, if kids do not trust their parents, they will go to their friends, but if the friends has bad influence to them, they will choose the wrong way.

It is not easy to become parents also not easy for kids to live with parents who just not understandable.

I guess by having some hobby, I will become more positive towards live and family-life about. There was a time that I get bored and give up to everything and just want to let go everything that I have. It is totally wrong. If I let go off everything now, I am sure that I will regret the whole life.

Back to the house work that I got to do, this is all faith that Allah has given to me. Until now, hubby still did not get down payment for payment that he has pay to Indonesian agent. They promise that they will pay back the money to us if we did not satisfied with the maid. We have given time to them but it's four month already and there is no news about the money. In fact, the agent change his mobile number. Additional to this, cousin who introduce us to this agent keep silent about this. We knew that the cousin also got portion from the money paid and did not help us on this matter. The consequences was they (cousins family) did not come over to our house for raya this year. I also did not invited her family for akikah Aryan. The fact that I've been hurt from what had happen plus I got to do house work by myself and got tired easily with two kids around me. Each time I remember her (maid) I will cursed her and did make any good to me at all. Trying to forget that I treat her good, but repay me for nothing make me pain.

Redha and give it all to Alah, insyaAllah Allah will pay me more pahala hereafter.

LWM Part I

OMG!!!!! It's been a while, please Allah give me some space to breath. Hurrmmmmm. A few month back, I promise myself to keep on writing, to say what I couldn't say to others through this blog. But then I failed! Hahahaahah. It's all update on me with my LWM. I am happy it success, yeah! I am losing some weight and I was happy though I still couldn't eliminate number 6 in front but I trust myself that I could do this.

21st May - 65.7 kg. My first appointment. 50 days in confinement.

14th June - 64.5 kg.

19th June - 63.0 kg. I still feel fat with flabby

29th June - 64.8 kg. Suddenly I am increasing weight. It's all happen because SA got so many function and I ate a lot.

8th July   - 63.2 kg. Still on dietary plan schedule.

28th July - 60.6 kg. Yeahhhhhhh!!! Only 0.7 to go to get number '5' in front! It is 19th Ramadhan some more.

It is not only I got a good dietary plan but Ramadhan time! Love Ramadhan! I monitored my weight closely and took count what I ate almost everyday. My iftar started with oats and I only eat after that. I did not eat carbo at all, unless if I 'buka" at my parents home. My sahur started with diet coffee and half plate of rice with 'lauk'.

Today is 19th Ramadhan and we will see next whether I could or could not reducing my weight during Syawal!

LWM

Yesterday I went to LWM for treatment and manage to reduce 2kg plus since the first day - 65.7 and currently I am 63. The first trial I went through on May 2013. It is free, then I sign up and the first treatment on 14th June and yesterday was the second treatment. Overall, I already went through 3 sessions. The next  appointment will be on 29th means 10 days more and aim for 3-4kilos.  If I got to manage reduce another 4kilos means I am succeed to remove the 6 to 5 in front, yeahhh!!! Still working on it!

I just love my consultant (Megan) and she tought me few things about food intake, calories, what should we eat and what we should not. Even though it is the basic things and we used to know in example do not eat after 6.00 pm but can we follow the diet? It is hard without high motivation. Since I 'pay' LWM and I need to reduce weight to what they expected (Megan wants me to reduce to 52kg) so that I don't have to pay for another extra treatment. I have to make sure that I am loosing some (many) fats and that makes motivation to me. I already sign up for 20 treatment and cause me alot K plus the payment made for 2 years in installment. So I 'have to' loosing weight, I need to!

What the LWM offer you? First and foremost, sauna bath then wrapped by hot blanket. Then they asked us to for bath. The third process involve machine and currently I already tried 3 different machine. Husband do not fully say 'yes' to this programme because what he questions me make sense actually. Where did the fat go?

I did some research and I read through forum and chat room that most slimming programme does not helps people to reduce weight. In fact, some of them become bigger. Why? Slimming programme used machine, the machine does not thrown away fats from our body but smaller the size of fats and that is why make some of them slimmer. What happen when they stopped the programme and back to the normal habits ot eating? They even become fatter.

What is the conclusion? Take smaller amount of food everyday and EXERCISE! The only way to burn the fat, thrown away the fat from our body is by doing EXERCISE! Not the slimming program! So why I still run for the programme? Whenever I saw cakes, oily foods, oily rices I remember that K that I already spent to LWM. Do not make those K useless. I am not rich ok!

My motivation is every time I'm on weight scale at LWM, I want to number to reduce. No matter what. Everytime I went to sauna and hot blanket things, all in my mind was there must be a reason why I am here. It is so relaxing. I can't tell you people. I had a good times. I want to forget everything outsides, every single problems that I faced, my children, husband. I thrown them away from  my mind. I need some time for myself. Megan also noticed that I was so tired everytime I come for treatment and asked me to get some sleep while doing the treatment. Even though the sauna and hot blanket was so damn hot but it is worth. I feel so relax and energetic each time after every sessions.

Back to my routine, I had to wake up as early as 5.3-6 am every day, give formula to aryan, then prepare for kakak and adik to their nursery / nanny, pray, drinks LWM coffee before going to office. After come back with of them trying to spend some time with them before go to sleep. 

After both of them sleeping I try to find some time to ironing, cleaning. Even it is tiring but enjoyable. Love my life and I do not wat to complaint much. It's happy actually, got husband and growing kids. It is just in the meantime we didn't afford to buy our own house yet. Me and husband is working hard to it. InsyaAllah!