Stress..

Dalam dunia ni tak ada benda yang perfect and tak perlu nak kritik or condemn others if their behaviour, their attitude, their thinking tak sama macam kita. Everyone is different, and everyone has different journey in their life.

If they did things yang kita rasa tak best atau tak seronok rasanya tak perlu la nak cakap or spell it out, simpan je dalam hati perasaan tu sebab tak semestinya apa yang kita buat best sangat bagi orang lain. Entah, I don't know why some people love to compare what they had with others.

Pelik tengok perangai manusia.

People usually kalau dia suka sangat talk about a things or someone or any things on certain particular people, most probably, I repeat most probably they are envy to that person.

In my life, I met many people and I valued friendships were among valuable things because friendships is a kind of things that I choose myself.

If there were people (not your friends) talking about you, condemn you, what you did, what you own and etc..talking to your friends about it, gossiping about you and at the end you heard it back, there where they should stand... BEHIND you!! Yes, exactly! That is why you are still in the same place women! And YOU are not HAPPY at all!

This is because people who talking about you, they got NOTHING to do, their life is miserable, they had difficulty in life, they are unhappy, they are pathetic and experience BRAIN damage.

So lets not talk about others.

Live happily.

I myself in everyday routine, after send Mikha to his place, running to library till 4-5 pm, then lunch at very late afternoon, pick up Mikha, buat kerja rumah..bla bla..tidurkan dia, then sambung kerja till 2 am, bangun  pagi balik. That's the routine. I had sleepless every night, I eat when I feel hungry, I am busy, had no time watch tv. Weekends is a family time then. 

Therefore, whoever mess with me will get a slap from me now onwards.

I don't give a damn on how you do your life, I will never judge.

I am myself is a damn happy women. I repeat HAPPY. I got a family, husband - works 18 hrs a day - to fulfill what his wife needs - a pair of children - supportive parents - good siblings - a mak mertua yang tak kisah apa aje asal korang bahagia - ipar2 yang tak masuk campur.

Oh, apa yang membebel panjang sangat ni???

Masya Allah!

Okey, I dah maafkan siapa -siapa yang I mean in above statement. I am human, I am weak. 

Sekian.

If you just cp a post, you better not posting anything..

On Thursday 9th April, I pergi seminar on mendeley by dr ot. I wish that I could go earlier because it is very beneficial. In fact, by writing the way that he introduced, it is the fastest way, the easiest way, the understandable way and if you could really focus doing the way he taught, there are no doubt that you are going to GOT your PhD. In sya Allah. 

As usual, it is not all about academic writing but still every doctors-ate will guide you and giving you advices as many that they could. In life, in writing, in family matters. Selit - selit sikit.

Dia cakap yang if you are in the particular group (WA ke FB ke, apa - apa jela) jangan la copy paste bagi kat satu group then ke satu group lain. Yang dia cakap ni especially in FB group la. Sebab tak relevant, macam DSG. Kalau benda tu just CP, just CP at your wall, that's it, jangan la CP masuk group yang beribu-ribu orang dalam itu. Tak membina.

Betul juga. He encouraged our own writing, so that whatever we write is from our heart, from our opinion, could be shared to others. Betul juga.

So from now on, kalau nak share, kita share apa yang kita nak tulis, pandangan kita, bukan pandangan orang lain, Good idea.

Updated Seminars

2014
Sept

1) 26th Sept - Attended Colloquium at ILQAM


Oct

2) 2nd Oct - Kelas Kemahiran KKM - Puan Rabita - PTAR 2

3) 8th Oct - Mendeley Class - En Shahrol Nizam - PTAR 1

4) 13th Oct - Analysing LR Using Socratic Method - Prof Juhana Salim - MPWS Bangi - with CERT

5) 30th Oct - Attended Presentation of DRP - Meeting Room FBM

Nov

6) 6 - 7th Nov - IGS Writing Thesis Seminar - AP Dr  Noorzan Mohd Noor - Akademi Bahasa

7) 20th Nov - Doing A Critical Literature Review: Tips to Constructing a Quality Thesis - Prof Madya Dr. Razamin Ramli - MPWS Bangi - with CERT


Dec
8) Research Methodology Workshop 
        Date        :        1 December 2014 (Monday) 
        Time       :        8.30 am to 5.00 pm 
        Venue     :        Lecture Theater A, FBM Shah Alam 
        Speaker  :         Prof Dr Raja Munirah

9) Workshop on Data Analysis using SPSS 
        Date        :        2 December 2014 (Tuesday) 
        Time       :        8.30 am to 5.00 pm 
        Venue     :        Computer Lab, level 5 FBM Shah Alam 
        Speaker  :        Dr. Abdul Kadir Othman

10) Colloquium (compulsory for the students to attend) 
        Date        :        4 December 2014 (Thursday) 
        Time       :        8.30 am to 5.00 pm 
        Venue     :        Classrooms, Level 4 FBM Shah Alam 

11) 19,20 &21 Dec - IGS Research Skills - WITH CERT - compulsary for 1st year student,

(a) 19 Dec (Dewan Annexe)
8.30 - 10.30 am    : Writing Research Proposal - Prof Dr Hajibah Osman
10.45 - 12.45 pm  : Avoiding and Detecting Plagiarism - PM Anealka Aziz Hussein
3.00 - 5.00pm       : Writing Literature Review - PM Anealka Aziz Hussein

(b) 20 Dec ( ILQAM)
8.30 - 10.30am    : Methodology - Qualitative Research - AP Dr Ros Aizan Yahya
10.45 - 12.45 pm : Developing Conceptual Framework - AP Dr Norzaidi Daud
2.30 - 4.30 pm     : Methodology - Quantitative Research - Dr. Paramjit

(c) 21 Dec (Dewan Annexe)
8.30 - 10.30am    : Working with your Supervisors
10.45 - 12.45 pm : Identifying the Research Question


12) 29th Dec - Preparing PhD Proposal - Ass Prof Madya Dr. Norzaidi Mohd Daud - Auditorium 1 ILQAM


2015
February
1) 16th Feb - DRP - for special - 4 person only.

March
2) 20th Mar - Mock Defense dor VIVA and DRP - AAGBS
3) 25th Mar - Collaqium Level 4, FBM

April
4) 9th Apr - Seminar Penulisan Thesis Cepat and Mendeley - Dr Othman Talib - MPWS Bangi - with CERT
5) 15th Apr - DRP - Level 4 FBM - 4 students - 2 Masters; 2 PhD - not pass.

May
6) 9 & 10 May - IGS Data Analysis - Computer Lab 5 & 6 - FSKM
This workshop will help postgraduate students on how to do data analysis by using practical hands-on approaches with real data sets. Participants will learn how to prepare data for analysis and how to use SPSS, a statistical package designed to manage, organise and analyse research data. This is twi-session workshop on advance data analysis which will introduce the advanced statistical techniques that are available for researchers.

The Speakers:- Assoc. Prof Dr Puzziawati Abd Ghani & Assoc. Prof Dr Noorizam Daud

7) 14 -15 May - Structural Equation Modelling (SEM)

Venue	:	Computer Lab, Perpustakaan Tun Abdul Razak (PTAR 1), UiTM Shah Alam
Time	:	8.30am - 5.00pm

 The Presenter: Prof Ramayah

Outline of the workshop:- 

• History of Multivariate Analysis, Exploratory Research and Confirmatory Research, Introduction to SEM,
• The Application of SEM in Postgraduate Research,
• Comparison between Variance Based SEM and Covariance Based SEM,
• Modeling SEM using Amos Graphic
• The Concept of Latent Constructs – Formative and Reflective Constructs
• Validating the Measurement Model of a Construct (Running the CFA)
• CFA Reporting for Unidimensionality, Validity, and Reliability of a Construct
• Analyzing the Structural Model (SEM)
• Analyzing the Mediators in a Complicated Model
• Personal Project Presentation 

When I See You Again

Last two weeks, after settle birthday party adik, sebab keterujaan kami nak tengok movie paling baru and hot FnF7, kami gagahkan juga ke tgv Bukit Tinggi even masa check in the web, seat semua dah full house, tapi kami pergi juga and akhirnya tadaaaaaa, we could manage to see the movie.

Cerita dia kinda best as usual, full of action (like we both loves) and PW tak mati dalam cerita ni. It is because of technic used (ok, biasalar) they got this technology kan. 

Then, accidently when I was listening to the Mix FM, I heard that VD sing a song of when I see you again is special dedicated to PW. Pastu eh macam best pulak lagu ni. Okey, cari.

 It's been a long day without you, my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

When I see you again...

Sila enjoy, we will never know when we will die obviously, muda ke tua ke.

We could never know.

And it is whether people who is still alive still remember us, pray for us, sedekahkan al fatihah kat kita ke, kita tak tahu.

So masa hidup ni la kita kena buat baik kat orang, even we have  been hurt so many times, lets forgive and forget.

Everytime I see adik and kakak face, I always fikir, cemana eh diorang nanti dah besar, what would they will be? Hopefully they will doing fine and happy at all times.

I loves them with full heart, their daddy with all my soul and my mak and may ayah more than I could tell.

Allah has destine them for me, we could choose friends not the family.

  

Me..this week..

I missed writing and in fact wiring can help my brain function. Today, I already done discussion with Dr SS. Dia sangat sibuk. Really busy man, naik pangkat meh, lots of things to do. I can't blame him sebab tak balas emails and WA. Although the first thing that I am choosing him because he has  NO ADMIN position before but tup tup dia kena sandang jawatang Timbalan FPP, so nak kata apa. Rezeki dia, yang merana PG dia. Huhuhuh.

Anyway congrates to him. 

Yang tak berapa nak congrates adalah myself which he has moved to Puncak. Menuju puncak macam tagline AF. I just hope that postgraduate team will not move there, or else I kena naik puncak every time I wanted to see him.

Oh, memang tak.

Yang kerja - kerja previous post banyak I dah buat. And I back to where I tulis semua apa yang I buat. Haritu bila I stopped doing that, habis semua berterabur and tak siap. Now, I'm back to reality.

Oh ya, last Tuesday (24.03.2015) adalah harijadi mak yang ke 61 tahun.

Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki. Insya Allah.

Kita ada celebrate kat restoran tapi takde gambar.

Takpe nanti weekend ni kita nak celebrate lagi

Hahahahah.

Semalam, I tengok mock drp few students kat faculty. And after tu, I terlanjur ikut Elaina ke TTDI, beli tudung Naelofar. Semoga sikap membeli belah ini tidak terbawa - bawa lagi. Aminnnnnnn.

But today, masa Dr SS talking to Dr Herwina (one of panel yesterday's mock), she said that none of the presenter will passed drp if this is the things they wanted to present for real drp. She telah mencuakkan diri ini.

I also dah sign up for dr ot's workshop, next two weeks. I guess my allowances mostly will go to fuel, courses, books. Ini pun I rasa macam tak cukup buku lagi. Maybe I  nak beli few books and voucher RM 250.00 tu sangat tak cukup untuk postgraduates students.

Hari ni I dah settle kain after I balik tadi, I nak pick up adik kejap lagi and most importantly I nak tengok final #temanlelakiupahan. Okey, I tak tengok semua episod but I guess final ni I akan faham. Hahahahahahahah.

....Kekasihku...

....Kusimpan satu rahsia..

....Bla bla bla (tak hafal lirik)...

K bai!

I Need......

Oh mai.. dah sepuloh hari kut march.. so hall and kitchen settle, yeah..10 hari amik masa nak mengemas, boleh tahan. After moved in, the whole last weekend, mula - mula adik demam, settle dengan adik, then kakak demam bawa balik sini, 3 hari tak pergi sekolah, tinggal dengan mummy.

Baru je nak settle this week, tiba - tiba sakit mata pulak semalam. Ni mata masih sakit, pergi klinik kena RM61, duit ada RM50 je masa tu, pergi cucuk pulakkkkkkkkkk!!!!

Rak buku tak berkemas lagi dengan sepenuhnya. Ada jam yang tak di gantung lagi. Sekolah pun tak setel lagi. (my school). Mybrain tak bayar lagi my fees and I even didn't up date my things at all. Kalau dah gugur taraf nanti jangan nyesal ye kalau lambat -lambat. Kannn??

Before pergi holiday kat Morib tu, a day before me and husband cepat-cepat tengok satu cerita:-

I tought this movie is all about action. Not to the extent that earth belongs to someone, it does not make sense at all. Aku tak suggest cerita ni, in fact I don't believe in such things. Not to my IQ, boleh rosak IQ tengok I guess, Hahahhaaha.

Dan haruslah encik husb menggelakkkan sang isteri yang beria-ia sangat nak tengok keseksian Mila Kunis dan ketampanan hero, wowwwwww!!!!

Back to reality, dah banyak perkara terlengah disebalik kegagalan fungsi ginjal untuk bertindak balas secara cepat, mungkin faktor usia agaknya.

Jadi, ada perkara - perkara yang menyebabkan tekanan perasaan dan semua ini harus dihentikan dengan cepat, dengan membaca lebih banyak doa, bukan doa tido bak kata mikha..aaammmuutttt.. Itu sahaja yang budak kecik tu mengerti.

Spesis anak - anak makin membesar menandakan mak bapak yang semakin muda (tua dalam kurungan) dan keslow motion berlaku dalam keadaan separa sedar.

Harus lah pelajar doktor falsafah ini menulis dalam keadaan lebih berfalsafah sejajar dengan perkembangan otak kiri dan kanan, bukan menulis secara kosong bak sekosong tin susu yang telah habis isinya.

Dan membaca lebih banyak buku ilmiah bukan blog - blog gosip hebat untuk membantu penjanaan ilmu dan minda dan voucher buku harus digunakan sebaiknya bukan membeli buku masakan yang cuma hanya di gunapakai pada bulan puasa.

Okey, selaras dengan tajuk, sebagai penutup it is actually I NEED:-

1) Organize rak buku

2) Buat jadual seharian (bukan ikut laki pergi sana sini)

3) Bayar semua bil, jangan lambat!

4) Baca jurnal

5) Jumpa Dr SS minggu ni

6) Isi report Mybrain, print out bill, jumpa Dr SS, pergi mybrain, hantar borang semester report, hantar bil sekali

7) Up to date chapter 1

8) KEMAS RUMAH SECARA HABISAN

9) Alter langsir

10) Hantar tenpah baju

11) Cari hadiah Aish birthday Sabtu ni - dah alang2 tu cari hadiah Ryan and Aishah sekali.

12) Prepare birthday Mikha 5th April, 

Yang paling kritikal item no 6, sila faham!

GO GO GO GO GO Aunty Ayong (Nama ini akan dicerita di next post!)

...............oh march!

Hari ini.. 2 March..

Di kesempatan yang pendek ni. Sangat pendek. I wanted to write that CNY School Holiday spent well. Pergi mandi air terjun, pergi mandi kat water park. Kids having so much fun. 

I already finally moved out to new rented house. Tapi satu apa tak siap lagi, so I berlari - lari anak meninggalkan rumah and back to school.

Today here I am, dengan rumah bersepah macam nak rak, dengan kepala bersepah dengan macam - macam nak buat. Few kenduri in march, birthday party to attend. And april also.

So wish me luck.

Life is not difficult but not easy too!