me and myself

Salam and good morning.

Lately I've been facing emotional disorder (macam orang sakit jiwa la plak). No it is not any psychological disorder ke ape ke just emotional not stable at the moment. 

Sebab utamanya tak dapat habiskan MBA (obviously) plus my daughter cirit-birit hari tu. Then semlam Khamis I dapat gastrik. I punya perangai if I stress, I akan dapat gastrik. Eh, apa kaitan? Yes, it is true, kalau anda terlampau stress, ia akan mengakibatkan gastrik. Eh, apa-apa la

So today, I go to office and tried to cheer up a little bit.

I start working here (SA) 3rd January 2007 and dah 5 years gone. This year it is gonna be 6 years of commitment. Sebenarnya I dah fed up and bosan counting numbers, buat full sets of account then end up every month doing report for the sake of five years. I am boring!

Therefore, I continue my MBA dengan harapan sebesar-besarnya untuk berhenti dan buat lecturing. Then after I still have to carry out one more paper, I was like, aaarrrghhhhhhhh!!

"Tanda-tanda seseorang mengalami stress juga boleh dikesan melalu psikologikal yang ditunjukkan seperti mudah berasa bimbang, keliru, kurang daya tumpuan, sukar kawal diri, sukar hendak tidur, perubahan emosi seperti sering berasa kecewa, mewujudkan permusuhan, rasa tidak berdaya, cepat marah, & lemah semangat"

Ni I quote from one blog (I cannot remember). I just wanted to highlight the issues on mewujudkan permusuhan. Knowing me memang I am not the type of mewujudkan permusuhan tapi I guess 5 years kerja kat sini merubah the whole me.

Situasi pagi tadi:-

Kak A (poyo kakak ni sebab dia ingat dia lawa. : Eeeeee, apsal awak pakai tudung bawal? Igat macam Norjuma ke

Me  : Eh, suka hati sayala, tudung bawal ke ape ke

Kak A pun pergi dengan muka poyo. Depan orang ramai saya sound tepek dia.

Pastu tiba-tiba Zana (ofismate) cakap 'Dee, apsal ko pakai tudung bawal? Pakai la tudung pari ke'?

(Ni mengejek ni)

Dee jawab 'Eh suka hati akula nak pakai tudung bawal ke apa ke, ko tu baru pakai tudung tak sampai setahun dah kecoh'

Dee dan Zana ketawa, tapi memang di dengari Miss S yang BFF dengan Kak A.

So, what do you expect? I memang nak sangat pun Miss S bagitau Kak A sebab tak kisahla orang suka saya ke tak.

Memang sikap I dah berubah dari dulu sampai sekarang. Dulu, nak cerita mengumpat ni bukan myself la, I bukan jenis mengumpat sana sini, tapi sejak kerja ni, dah jadi hobi pulak sebab  seronok plak mengumpat kan (syaitan syaitan!!!!)

I macam dah boleh accept la I have to repeat marketing paper because I wanted to get better cgpa insyaAllah and it will look good into my portfolio right?

I cerita pun macam dah lompat-lompat. Tapi mewujudkan permusuhan tu sebenarnya ada kene mengena dengan my studies. Since I pun dah banyak sakitkan hati orang, I promise myself to be a better person, to be good, to mengurangkan umpat, keji orang lain sebab agaknya ini semua balasan yang Tuhan bagi sebab perangai I yang dah banyak berubah. Tambahkan amalan ibadat and respect to others. So biarlah apa orang buat kat I, I will remail like past, biar je. Less hurt people and less hurt myself.

I just hope berkat doa mak ayah to me and my family, our family akan ceria, akan bertambah rezeki dan diberkati Allah. I also hope that my hubby will be diberikan rezeki Allah and success in his business. I know he struggle with his business, company debt, support family and all those stuff. 

Azam tahun lepas untuk habiskan MBA masih tak tercapai so I forward to this year. From now on, my resolution this year will be (belum lambat lagi kan?):-

1) Habiskan MBA

2) Pregnant on May because I wanted to deliver baby on February 2013. Hahahaha. Ni takkan di postpone!

3) Kelas kan habis June 2012 so result akan keluar on August/Sept. Dapat je result I akan apply for lecturer. I dun want to think about PhD first. If my husband's business run well, I will continue studies, if it isn't I will apply for lecturing.

4) Kumpul duit sebab nak hantar Marsya play school on January 2013 (3thn)

Tadi masa I jumpa admin gbs, she advice me that everything yang terjadi ni ada hikmahnya so kena terima and lebih berhati-hati pada masa hadapan. I nak move forward, I won't move backward and promise to myself that I will do everything and whatever it takes to finish what I've started. Nak jadi isteri solehah dan ubah diri sendiri, jadi lebih baik, aminnnn.

Huhhhh, so now, I nak sambung balik kerja-kerja ofis yang tertangguh ni dan I nak siapkan kerja bersunnguh-sungguh. Enjoy life and appreciate for what I have!

Daaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! Happy weekends!

                                     

what women want

Hi, today is women's day (schedule entry) and I've red and article combining celebrities of women and asking them what women want. Basically I would say women needs many many things! Women creature are hard to be satisfied (I mean things eh not sex) Sex maybe in the second place kut, uhhhhhhhh! One of the celebrities was the famous blogger, vivy (proudduck).

They (the women) has many different views, different thinking and needs. 

This article asked them 5 same questions and below was the article:-

Today is International Women’s Day, and we want this day to be all about women ... and what women want.

And what better way to find out what women deem important than to just ask them.

We started the ball rolling by posing five questions to these six women on what matters to them. They represent a new generation of women who are confident and talented, and who are not afraid to define for themselves who they are and what they want to be.

They don’t adhere to conventional wisdom, and shrug off old stereotypes.

Beauty queen Soo Wincci is set on going all the way to Hollywood, and is preparing for the big time by pursuing her PhD in business so she will be able to manage her own career. Between the make up sessions and shoots, Soo was sharing tips with the newly-crowned Miss Malaysia-Universe Kimberley Leggett, and their conversation revolved around how important it is to pursue tertiary studies.

Singers Liyana Fizi and Elvira Arul are dedicated to their music, and they have stayed faithful to their respective genres because that’s where their hearts lie.

Vivy Yusof is pint-sized but big on dreams and entrepreneurial spirit. The British law graduate eschewed the usual career route and set up an online shop with a partner.

Phillipa Yoong won her first gold medal in water skiing at the Jakarta Sea Games when she was 18, and grabbed another two medals at the recent Sea Games after a 15-year hiatus and giving birth to two daughters.

Whatever their chosen path, and wherever it has led them, these six women maintain that what matters most to them are their loved ones and pursuing their passions.

We’d also like our women readers to tell us what they want, so please share with us your answers to the five questions (see Your turn now on page 3).

Liyana Fizi

Liyana Fizi, 29, is the darling of the independent music scene, charming local music lovers since her time as the frontwoman of Estrella. She recently released her first solo album Between The Lines. She tweets at twitter.com/liyanafizi.

1. What makes you happy?

Being surrounded by love of family and friends, making music, and making travel plans.

2. What is most important to you now?

The most important thing to me, is to keep learning new ways to live my life to its full potential.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

At 19, the most important thing to me then was finishing my degree, and to start earning my own money.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

The top item would be to see the world while playing music.

5. I want ... An electric guitar.

Elvira Arul

Elvira Arul, 31, is a jazz singer who hit the musical stage last year as the co-lead in Dreamgirls... a long way from the days of busking in her college. She is passionate about her music, and championing various causes. She recently shaved her head in support of people with cancer, as it is a cause that is close to her heart. Follow her on twitter attwitter.com/elvirasoul.

1. What makes you happy?

A smile. A hug. A look, these things make me happy. Spending time with my loved ones. Music :)

LOVE! Love makes me happy ... and pandas!

2. What is most important to you now?

Love. My parents. My partner. My family. Music. God. Standing up for the voiceless.

People loving each other and showing it outwardly. People not judging each other, but helping each other out.

3.What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Everyone and everything! My career, what people thought of me (now only what my loved ones think of me matters), God. Church.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

Singing with all my favourite artistes in my lifetime. Getting more empathy for issues pertaining to women’s plights!

For cases of violence against women to be zero!

For our sexual rights to be on par with the world.

For there to be no more people dying from cancer.

5. I want ...

For there to be more empathy in the world.

For human beings to show more love to one another.

For the homeless to have a roof over their heads, shelter from the storm, and food in their tummies.

For children to have a childhood!

Kimberley Leggett, 18, is embarking on an exciting journey. The teenager has moved to Kuala Lumpur from Penang to live on her own, and will be starting college soon ... and working hard to prepare for the Miss Universe pageant later this year. Follow her ontwitter.com/kimmyleggs.

1. What makes you happy?

Simple pleasures are the world’s greatest indulgences, I feel. Whether it be a long bath after a hard day’s work, watching TV or being surrounded by family and friends at celebrations or for dinners. I think it’s when my life is in equilibrium – it’s stress free, and in balance.

2. What is most important to you now?

My family and friends. Without them, I wouldn’t have a firm foundation or wonderful support. No success would have been achieved without them, and it’s their shoulders to cry on, their hugs and their encouragement which have picked me up each time I thought I couldn’t go on.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Ten years ago I was eight, ha ha, so I think then it would have been doing well in school, playing with my pets, having a lot of friends, and not being too mischievous! Simple things that an eight-year-old would find important or to be the world’s biggest problems – school, friends and getting into trouble!

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

There are so many things on it! Top of the list is probably, get killer abs for Miss Universe 2012 this year(!) Speak five languages, visit the seven wonders of the world, Christian Louboutin shoes, completing a marathon ... the list goes on really, it’s a rather deep bucket. :)

5. I want … To always be happy, no matter what life throws at me. As there’s “always sunshine after the rain” as they say, my hope is that all women in Malaysia can take this day as a time to celebrate their smile!

Phillipa Yoong

Phillipa Yoong, 33, is under the blazing sun and in the water at least three times a week. The water skier who recently won double gold medals at the Palembang Sea Games trains even more frequently nearer competitions. And even if she retires from competition, Yoong says she will stay active because it’s a way of life for her. The mother of two is also the president of Ibu, a family resource group. She tweets at twitter.com/pcyoong.

1. What makes you happy?

Playing with my kids. Reading a good book.

2. What is most important to you now?

A happy, healthy and loving family.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

The next party.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

More time with my husband and for my husband – he’s really busy!

5. I want ... World peace, an end to all suffering, healthy food and for everyone to join the slow food movement.

Vivy Yusof

Vivy Yusof, 26, likes nice things and shopping, and has channelled that passion into running the largest online shopping site in Malaysia, fashionvalet.net.

It has been a lot of hard work, but the British graduate thrives on the challenge of gathering local designers on her site. She writes a monthly column on fashion for The Star’s R.AGE, and tweets attwitter.com/vivyyusof.

1. What makes you happy?

Good sleep! With work and all, we tend to take rest and sleep for granted, but this won’t be good in the long run. I always feel sluggish when I don’t have enough rest or sleep.

2. What is most important to you now?

Slowly I am learning that the most important thing to me is health. I am hearing more and more people my age having cancer, and I feel that I should respect myself more to strike a balance between work and play. We can be millionaires but if we are too sick to enjoy the fruits of our labour, there really is no point. Work hard, but know when your body is aching.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Handbags.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

I am pretty greedy so my bucket is pretty deep. Among the things I want is a happy family, good health, an awesome career, a successful online shopping business, and being able to afford a comfortable lifestyle on my own. The material things like more clothes and handbags goes without saying, but all of that will come with hard work. Oh! I also would like to travel more often.

5. I want ... A balanced lifestyle. I want to be able to divide my time between work, family, friends and me time.

Soo Wincci

Soo Wincci, 26, has calluses on her palms, and her legs bear bruises from pole dancing. But it’s a small price to pay to get her fit and ready to break into the Taiwanese entertainment scene later this year. She recently released her Chinese album, and will be launching her Malay EP soon. Her web site is soowincci.com, and she tweets at twitter.com/soowincci.

1. What makes you happy?

Making others happy.

2. What is most important to you now?

Passion and goals in life.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Family.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

To make Malaysia proud.

5. I want... to achieve all my dreams and goals in life and keep pushing my limits to higher levels from time to time.

So what actually I want? Let me answer those questions:-

1. What makes you happy?

I am happy if all my routine and what i plan goes smoothly, in order and no delay

2. What is most important to you now?

It is important for me to look good, to being pretty all the time so that my confidence level will be high and no way of depressed and down, being respect by others and be able to share my experiences to junior

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

10 years ago, it is really important for me to get in the serious relationships because I really feel with an honest relationships, we will have some inspiration in our lives to move and something to achieve besides to have a very good family (which I already have) and bunches of goods friends (to enjoy!!)

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

Currently, I want more salary because:-

1) Planning to have added family (preggie by this year)

2) To send my daughter to play school

3) To finish my marketing paper (and MBA too)

4) To have own car (currently share it with husband)

5) To have bhuge wardrobe with fully vogue-fashionable dress etc, bunches of colour handbags and shoes so I can match them with my outfits, branded make-up, hohohohoho!

5. I want...to be more happy in life, thankful to Allah for what I have. Always remember phrase of hadith which means "Bagaimana anda mahu mandapat rezeki lebih besar jika anda tidak tahu mensyukuri nikmat kecil yang Allah beri" 

Subhanallah, bersyukur dengan apa yang ada!