Result SPM dah keluar semalam so I pun teringat mu cousin's daughter 'angah' dapat result. So I pun suruh my sis, 'adik' riki result dia. Means spy kat kakak angah yang kitorang panggil along. Along ni sebaya adik even kalau ikut pangkat my sis ni dah macam makcik.
Dulu along and angah pernah tinggal dengan kitorang. Time kecik dulu la.
My sis kate she got 5A, alhamdulillah la kan. Than I tanya dia macamna dapat tau, dia cakap dia baca blog angah. So I pun pagi-pagi datang ofis ni bukak blog dia. And ada satu entry tu buat I nangis pagi-pagi ni.
My cousin was already divorce with her husband. She got married with another men so do her husband. Angah cakap she never will be OK with that. Its hurt for me. Sedih. Even dia ketawa she never be ok because she didn't see her mother much. They (the children) stay with their father and stepmom. My cousin has three children (two daughter and a son) from the marriage. I mean yeah it is not easy for us (children) accept that our parents were divorce and the fact that they only see her mother once in two weeks.
As angah cakap the gap getting bigger and the sentences be like 'can you imagine not seeing your own mother everyday???" Fuhhh, mendalam! A girl, daughter or women cannot live without her mother. No! Everything I (as a women) rely everything with my mother. She raised me by her own hand because she is full housewife. I never imagine that of mak go for working, and I have to stay with somebody else or maid or taska ke whatever, I must grown up differently.
Angah jugak cakap ever since they were small, she never get close with her mother because she felt that her mom was grumpy one, compare with her father whom more easy going. When they lived with their parent at age of 5 (then kalau tak silap masa tula diorang tinggal dengan my mom). And got some issues then diorang (my cousin and her husband that times) suruh anak diorang duduk rumah sendiri jaga diri sendiri.
Yang I could remember masa Along tadika, sometimes mak ada slow talk dengan dia and dia selalu mengadu her parents selalu bergaduh.Sebab mak perasan budak berdua tu (Angah and Along) selalu termenung setiap kali kat datang rumah after tadika.
Masa tu I baru je 17 ke 18 kut sebab beza I n Along 12 years.And after balik sekolah I selalu suruh diorang simpan kasut sekolah and mandi. kalau I balik tengahari pastu tengok diorang still with their uniform, siap I akan membebel. Cos my sister dia memang dah set mind after tadika, simpan kasut, mandi, makan pastu tengok tv. Bila I balik tengok my sister dah settle down tapi budak berdua tu masih dalam tadika uniform, siap I akan marah.
I ingat lagi banyak issues masa Along and Angah tinggal rumah my mom, my sister ada lelah then bile Abg Mi (their father) cakap Angah sakit sebab menjangkit dari my sis, my parents marah then after a while my mom dah tak nak jaga lagi diorang.
But, its is past kan and family tied is forever. We forgive and forget and after that we become normal again like we used to.
After read her blog, I know that she is normal. Angah, if I could say this to you;
Angah,
Tak semua penceraian tu kejam. Along, angah dan adik kena terima hakikat even ibu dan ayah tak bersama lagi, tipula diorang tu dah hilang rasa sayang to each other. Diorang dah takde jodoh, kita kena terima.
Angah I feel that result yang Angah dapat tu ermmm 'it is notAngah'. I mean Angah can do it better. Salah tak if I say your family influence of this. Angah jangan fikir sangat. Kita kene ke depan.
Kalau Angah dapat masuk U nanti Angah belajar la betul-betul dan suatu ari nanti Angah akan jumpa soul mate Angah where you could share your life with.
Angah, kalau ibu tak rapat dengan Angah tak semestinya ibu tak sayang dengan Angah. I know Kak Ana since small. I don't blame her for what she now because tegokla macamana atuk Angah dulu tak jaga ibu. Ibu Angah struggle with life, tiap pagi bangun pukul 4-5 pagi cari duit because she want to be have better life. Sampai sekarang I tengok Kak Ana masih macamtu. Kadang-kadang I doa biarla Kak Ana ni kahwin dengan orang kaya ke so dia tak payah struggle lagi.
Tok Uda pun selalu pesan kat Kak Ana supaya tak payah kerja keras sangat. Dunia ni fana, hidup ni sementara. Kak Ana ni ikut suka dia je, dia degil, susah nak dengar cakap orang, Angah pun tau ibu Angah macamana.
I tak tahu nak bahasakn diri I ni apa dengan korang sebab I ni makcik korang but I always pesan jangan pangil Mak Long ke apa ke, I tak suka. You all berdua (Along and Angah) ikut je, panggil I 'Kak Yong'. Hahahahahha
Dahla I tak mo sedih-sedih lagi. I just hope you all (Alongm Angah dan adik) wil find your own way and live happily.
Daaaaa!!!!!!
