Hari ni dah 59 days of pantang, yeahhh..Eh, tak pantang lagi. Esok 60 days and Monday will be back to work. Hermmmmmm. Malas seighhhhh!!!! Baju semua dah tak muat, seluar sume dah letak dalam plastik! Stresss!!!
Lately ini, things like harta benda for future I mean like own house, own car mengganggu prestasi otak untuk berfikir but I couldn't change the fact that there are so much things that I should thankful for.
The fact that I am fat and gain much much more kilos after second birth is painful. I am now 65.7kg at the moment!!!! Yang tergemuk dalam kehidupan. Jangan kira masa pregnant ok.
So suatu hari yang indah, last two weeks if I am not mistaken, I saw LWM at IOI Mall and cakap kat husband "Oh, I nak pergi sini la". Terussss husband heret me and Aryan kat dalam tu. I spoke to Megan (currently my consultant). Terus buat appointment for first trial.
Eh, before I go on with the story I should say that my inner conflict become strong and stronger and I keep arguing with husband. Kadang-kadang marah dengan benda yang tak kena. kadang-kadang hot dengan benda yang tak munasabah.. Entahla. Before I personally write down bout myself in this blog, I campur-campur tulis in my children blog and my husband read it, and one time when we fight, he said that what I wrote in the blog is fake. Cakap macam it is not me, tak bersyukur la whatsoever. Then, I delete everything personally that I wrote and move to this blog. The other blog meant for my children only. I get hurt by that time and I never told him that I wrote to this blog. I don't want him to read this.
I guess in relationships we one another need space and some one to talk to and someone not judging us. Here, this blog!
After confinement I did not comfortable with myself and I know that my husband tried to cheer me up even when he made a joke, I just stone. So after my pantang day, he bought me these:-
Yeahhhh, he choose for me and costs about 1k plus!!! He asked me if I wanted new handphone but I choose new glasses because my phone is still ok but my glasses already broken.
He also bought me these to manage and reduce my weight. Haahahahaah. Masa parcel sampai tu ape mende la ni then when I bukak I saw digital body fat scale. Anyhow, I love it!
This is how it looks after I open up it. So modern kan!
I will try to reduce weight and promise myself to work hard on it!!!!!
