Terkejut

I dapat satu surat pagi tadi (yang my husband bukak kan) together an sms saying that:-

Anda di jemput untuk menghadiri peperiksaan Juruaudit W41 pada 14.04.2012. Sila layari Portal SPA www.spa.gov.my untuk maklumat lanjut. Terima Kasih.

I pun tak ingat tahun berapa la I sisi borang SPA ni? Juruaudit? W41? Serious tak ingat. I pun browse la portal SPA and find this.

Semakan Jadual Peperiksaan   Juruaudit Gred W41 No. Kad Pengenalan :     Sila Isikan No. Kad Pengenalan Anda (Contoh : 731211105455 atau A2345567) Portal SPA

Peperiksaan

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PEPERIKSAAN MEMASUKI SKIM PERKHIDMATAN JURUAUDIT GRED W41

No. Angka Giliran	:	1204254
Tempat Peperiksaan	:	PUTRAJAYA INTERNATIONAL CONVENTION CENTRE (PICC), DEWAN 4 & 5 CONCOURSE LEVEL DATARAN GEMILANG, PRESINT 5 62000 PUTRAJAYA W.P. PUTRAJAYA

Tarikh	Peperiksaan	Seksyen	Masa Dari	Masa Hingga
14/04/2012	PENGETAHUAN AM MENGENAI MALAYSIA DAN ALAM SEKELILING	A	08:30 PG	09:10 PG
	DAYA MENYELESAIKAN MASALAH	B	09:30 PG	10:15 PG
	KEFAHAMAN BAHASA MELAYU DAN BAHASA INGGERIS	C	10:35 PG	11:20 PG
	ESEI BAHASA MELAYU	D	11:40 PG	12:40 TGH
	ESEI BAHASA INGGERIS	E	01:00 TGH	02:00 TGH

*Calon boleh mencetak Maklumat Peperiksaan melalui Portal SPA untuk dibawa semasa menghadiri peperiksaan [ Cetak ]

Owh, ini sangat lama ni. Biar betul! Each session ada break 20 mins nak buat apa? Study? I never attended any government exam before sebab before ni I have rejected 2 exam of PTD.

I will go definitely but I tanak put high hope. Tapi kalau dapat lagi bagus kan. Juruaudit ni apa ye? I pun cekitout ape menda la agaknya.

Juruaudit Gred W41
	Kumpulan: Pengurusan dan Profesional
	Kem/Jab: Jabatan Audit Negara
	Jadual Gaji:
	P1T1 RM1702.81 - P1T27 RM4688.95 P2T1 RM1798.82 - P2T27 RM4968.61 P3T1 RM1899.01 - P3T27 RM5255.39
	Syarat Lantikan:
	Ijazah Sarjana Muda Kepujian yang diiktiraf oleh kerajaan daripada institusi-institusi pengajian tinggi tempatan atau kelayakan yang diiktiraf setaraf dengannya. [Gaji permulaan ialah pada Gred W41: P1T3 RM1886.49]; atau Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perakaunan yang diiktiraf oleh kerajaan daripada institusi-institusi pengajian tinggi tempatan atau kelayakan yang diiktiraf setaraf dengannya. [Gaji permulaan ialah pada Gred W41: P1T8 RM2345.69]; atau Ahli Penuh Badan-badan Ikhtisas Perakaunan yang diiktiraf oleh Kerajaan. [Gaji permulaan ialah pada Gred W41: P1T8 RM2345.69]; atau Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perakaunan yang diiktiraf oleh kerajaan serta menjadi Ahli Penuh Badan-badan Ikhtisas Perakaunan yang diiktiraf oleh Kerajaan. [Gaji permulaan ialah pada Gred W41: P1T9 RM2437.53]; atau Ahli Penuh Malaysia Institut Akauntan Malaysia. [Gaji permulaan ialah pada Gred W41: P1T10 RM2529.37]; dan lulus B.M. (termasuk lulus Ujian Lisan) pada peringkat SPM atau kelulusan yang diiktiraf setaraf dengannya oleh Kerajaan.
	Syarat Kenaikan Pangkat Secara Lantikan:
	Pegawai sedang berkhidmat dalam perkhidmatan Penolong Juruaudit adalah layak dipertimbang untuk KPSL ke jawatan Juruaudit Gred W41, tertakluk kepada kekosongan jawatan, apabila telah disahkan dalam perkhidmatan dan:
	mempunyai kelayakan di atas; atau lulus Peperiksaan Khas; dan berumur kurang dari 54 tahun pada tarikh lantikan.
	Deskripsi Tugas:
	Mengaudit dan menyediakan draf Laporan Audit, Akaun-akaun Kerajaan, Badan-badan Berkanun, Pihak Berkuasa Tempatan, Majlis Agama Islam dan lain-lain kumpulan wang. Then I try to find more info and got this:- Peperiksaan Juruaudit W41 - Sukatan Dan Contoh Soalan April ini dijadualkan akan diadakan Peperiksaan Bertulis Juruaudit iaitu pada 14 april 2012, sila semakPortal SPA untuk jadual peperiksaan, dibawah sedikit info berkenaan peperiksaan ini Peperiksaan ini bertujuan mengukur daya pemikiran serta kebolehan calon mengaplikasi maklumat yang diperolehi melalui latihan akademik, bacaan dan pengalaman. Calon-calon yang menduduki peperiksaan adalah dari pelbagai jurusan. Maka, soalan-soalan yang dikemukakan meliputi pelbagai bidang dan mempunyai skop yang luas. Matlamat peperiksaan ini adalah untuk mengukur kematangan pemikiran calon agar sesuai dengan kualiti serta potensi seorang Juruaudit, Gred W41. Peperiksaan ini melibatkan lima kertas berasingan. Setiap kertas adalah penting untuk prestasi mengukur calon. Calon-calon perlu menunjukkan prestasi yang baik bagi ke semua kertas. Jika prestasi yang sangat baik dipamerkan pada satu atau dua kertas sahaja, maka prestasi keseluruhan calon kurang memuaskan. Namun, jika calon mendapat markah yang menggalakkan bagi setiap kertas, maka prestasi keseluruhan dianggap baik. Oleh itu, calon-calon dinasihatkan supaya tidak memfokus kepada kertas tertentu sahaja. Kelulusan peperiksaan ini merupakan satu daripada syarat lantikan ke skim tersebut. Calon-calon yang memenuhi syarat-syarat lain yang ditetapkan oleh Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam Malaysia termasuk lulus ’Assessment Centre’ akan ditemu duga. Sukatan Peperiksaan Ujian ini mengadungi lima seksyen iaitu: (i) Seksyen A - Pengetahuan Am Mengenai Malaysia dan Alam Sekeliling Masa : 40 minit Bilangan Soalan : 50 (ii) Seksyen B - Daya Menyelesaikan Masalah Masa : 45 minit Bilangan Soalan : 40 (iii) Seksyen C - Kefahaman Bahasa Melayu dan Bahasa Inggeris Masa : 45 minit Bilangan Soalan : 40 soalan (iv) Seksyen D - Esei Bahasa Melayu Masa : 1 jam Bilangan Soalan : 3 jawab 1 Panjang Esei : Bilangan perkataan adalah tidak dihadkan. (v) Seksyen E - Esei Bahasa Inggeris Masa : 1 jam Bilangan Soalan : 3 jawab 1 Panjang Esei : Bilangan perkataan adalah tidak dihadkan.

Hari Berangan Cik Kiah

Harini Cik Kiah rasa Ciki Kiah nak berangan sikit. Hahahahahaah. Nak bagitau apa Cik Kiah nak. Heheheheheheheheh. Seronok seronok.

I want to do facial, scrub badan, mandi susu, full body massage.

Sambil massage buat manicure and pedicure

Seronok lepas tu pergi saloon and buat rambut pulak

Balik relax, ehehehhehehe.

Then my room decor I would like to be like this;

Simple and nice decor, atas tu I will put my wedding pictures. Ala, macam predictable kan? Ni ala-ala Swiss Garden Hotel je decor dia but I like it. Behind the big mirror is my bathroom and wardrobe semua kat belakang situ.

Then, I nak ubah bathroom I boleh?

Tepi sink tu ada bath tub. I guess just a small one and depan bath tub ada small shower.

Then belah kiri ada tempat macam ni. Sila abaikan radio tu, hehehehhehe. Where I can put towels, and maybe toiletries ke. Atau lilin wangi ke.

I nak konsep soft blue for my bathroom sebab I nak rasa tenang je duduk kat situ and bath tub tu penting untuk I berendam susu ke bunga ke kan. Eheheheeh.

So now move to Marsya's room.

Kalau mix kan colour tu jadi very light pink and purple ok kut. I prefer kalau bed and wardrobe kaler light brown White is not so into me la, and bigger bed size, ermmm..

This is my feveret baby's room! Remember I want to add family members? So boleh change napkins kat almari belah kanan tu. I luv the blue. Dark tapi tenang je. Toys pun boleh letak kat atas baby coat. Marsya takde baby coat but I will definitely buy one for for second children and make sure that its big enough for him (heheheeh) fit into it til 2-3 years.

And the decoration of room will be kind of like this la. Combination of both.

Cool living room. I am an earth colour person so don't blame me yo! Tengok staircase dia, cool right? But I am not sure it is applicable for those who has small child. Karang terjatuh pulak kat celah-celah kehidupan tu, ehehehehe.

And wall kat area staircase tu kena amik light green baru nampak ala-ala 'hijau'.

This one also cool. Compact.

Now move to kitchen. I hate cooking. Tak suka. But currently my kitchen was quit big jugak. Buat kata Kak Jihan kitchen besar, orang malas. Hahahahahh. Maybe I dun feel like my current home is not really my home kut. Kut la kan. I like the design so much, simple and sweet.

Ni takde kena mengena just nak bagitau yang kitchen diatas tu nak match kan dengan lantai ni.

I tanak lantai atas sebab tiles and celah-celah tiles tu hitam. I tak suka. Lantai sebelah ni kan shining lagi, glamer!

Kalau rumah double-story, between main bedroom and another bedroom ada small compund kan macam small living room. I always dream that to have mini library there sebab I have lots of stuff (books). 

In the meantime, my husband and I try nak buat camtu tapi tak jadi. Hahahahaha. Semak semacam je I tengok. 

Seriously kalau ada gambar I paste here.

This is my dream mini library la where I can lepak around and hang around with my kids. InsyaAllah

Tak salah ada impian kan?

Ok ok dahla berangan tu. Sebenarnya banyak lagi nak berangan tapi stop la dulu tu kan. Hahahahahahah. April is just around the corner ni so ada banyak issues kena setel in mid April.

Lesson to Myself

Pagi - pagi lagi dah busy memanjang si sambil tu curi - curi masa sikit untuk menulis di blog kesayangan nih. Dari before lunch tadi sampai petang ni nak tulis satu entry tapi tak siap-siap. There are a lots of things in my mind but I don't know where to start, dough.

Okey, lets start with work (boringggggg). I work here for a while and I  just can't take it anymore. I just can't. I am tired, so damn tired. Its not enjoyable at all, its a burden. 

Hari-hari macam boss akan tanya u "duit ada tak'. Should I answer "is it my work to think it?" Habistu manager and assistant manager buat apa? Everyday I was like " argh, bila semua ni nak end?????"

Plus, there were also annoying colleagues that make my life suck! Ayo, get away from my life, YOU PEOPLE! I dun interrupt your life, please stay away from mine. Eh, adeke? Ahahahahah. No, I am saying about people that say "eh, apsal u pakai baju camni" bla bla bla bla. Sibuk! Blah la weih.

Add to this I got one subordinate yang tersangat annoying dalam pada masa yang sama dah act like a boss dah. Soooooo annoying and less respect to others. Semua orang banyak dah complain on her behavior. dah lebih-lebih dah I tengok, Buat kerja sikit bising and complain. So I am thinking to replace her place with others.Tengokla how.

Then to family. My mother. Kadang - kadang torture I sampai ada satu tahap I dah tak mo balik kampung dah. Torture I nape I tanak masak kat rumah, kenapa I macam tu macamni, and how to take care Marsya. 

Nasihat I suruh ajar Marsya agama. I dun know, she keep telling me what to do. I dun exactly have time. I will try mak, Trying so damn hard. But I am not perfect. Or should I just sang the sing 'I am sorry I can't be perfect????'

I got daughter which I spent little time with her. What should I do? I am not afford yet nak amik dia stay with me. Plus my mom didn't like the idea of sending her to taska. I once send her to taska then she fall sick, asik kena neb, siapa tahan? Dia tak sesuai environment kat taska tu and terpaksa hantar klm balik. So quality time me was little. Siapa tak sedih? Siapa tak sayang anak? Seronok sangat duduk kt kk ni tanpa anak, NO!! Siapa tahu hati kecik I ni, siapa? Ada orang kisah? I nak pregnant lagi tapi my mom tak support the idea. She say I tak boleh jaga anak. Then takkan I nak beranak umur 40 kut. That's ridiculous and sad.

The other part of me was okay but not the business. Lately his business not running well and it reminded me of one quotes The loyalty of a woman is tested when her man is with no money. The loyalty of a man is tested when he is with lots of money

So, what to tell. The phrase tell everything right.

I am here not to nag ke komplen ke pasal my life but more on to writing. The truth, the fact. I can't escape from the truth but to face it, this is challenges in my life that I got to go, to deal. Siapa ada kehidupan yang perfect? Siapa? None of us.


Again, trying so damn hard to understand the real life was about.

Gastric

I experiencing gastric yesterday. It hurt, really! Sakit since 6.00 am in the morning and continue till night. Still I got to school. Kerja I ponteng. Dahla pagi tu I pergi Medivron, I am asking for time off je sebab I thought lepas makan ubat akan ok and I nak pergi kerja.

Tapi 10.30 am still tak elok, makin sakit and sakit.

As per husband say "Sakit ni nampak lagi teruk dari sakit nak beranak Marsya"

Yep, macam contraction, Kejap sakit, ok, sakit balik. Tapi setiap kali sakit, urat perut mengecut dan sakit tu teramat sangat! Sekarang rasa sakit lagi. Even I took medicine tapi tak elok lagi, compare last time when I amik one pills je, dah heal!''Dah tambah melarat even tak sakit macam semalam.

So today I browse a few info on gastric because I takut kalau gastric akan bertukar jadi ulcer or cancer. Takut. And I jumpa this article on how to cure gastric.

1. Have plenty of cold water. Even ice creams and cold milk are beneficial to provide relief from gastric pain.

2. Use a heating pad over the stomach if you have gastric pain.

3. To reduce acidity pain, go for a jog. Avoid having spicy or greasy food. Go for simple food which is light and easy to digest. Coconut water, lemonade, jaljeera water are beverages which cure gastric pain. Even chewing ajwain with hot water is a natural way to cure gastric pain.

4. Acidity is due to poor digestion. Eating more can increase the problem. Reduce the food intake and have simple light food.

5. Eat slow and chew the food properly. Have frequent food in small quantities at intervals.

6. Stay away from sauce, caffeine products like coffee, smoking, mints and alcohol as these agitate the stomach.

7. Eat on time. Natural way to cure gastric pain is by eating on time. Avoid eating too late especially 30-60 minutes before going to bed. It is best to have dinner 3-4 hours before going to bed.

8. Avoid having oily food. Work out a little to feel light.

Mariage and Divorce

Result SPM dah keluar semalam so I pun teringat mu cousin's daughter 'angah' dapat result. So I pun suruh my sis, 'adik' riki result dia. Means spy kat kakak angah yang kitorang panggil along. Along ni sebaya adik even kalau ikut pangkat my sis ni dah macam makcik.

Dulu along and angah pernah tinggal dengan kitorang. Time kecik dulu la.

My sis kate she got 5A, alhamdulillah la kan. Than I tanya dia macamna dapat tau, dia cakap dia baca blog angah. So I pun pagi-pagi datang ofis ni bukak blog dia. And ada satu entry tu buat I nangis pagi-pagi ni.

My cousin was already divorce with her husband. She got married with another men so do her husband. Angah cakap she never will be OK with that. Its hurt for me. Sedih. Even dia ketawa she never be ok because she didn't see her mother much. They (the children) stay with their father and stepmom. My cousin has three children (two daughter and a son) from the marriage. I mean yeah it is not easy for us (children) accept that our parents were divorce and the fact that they only see her mother once in two weeks.

As angah cakap the gap getting bigger and the sentences be like 'can you imagine not seeing your own mother everyday???" Fuhhh, mendalam! A girl, daughter or women cannot live without her mother. No! Everything I (as a women) rely everything with my mother. She raised me by her own hand because she is full housewife. I never imagine that of mak go for working, and I have to stay with somebody else or maid or taska ke whatever, I must grown up differently. 

Angah jugak cakap ever since they were small, she never get close with her mother because she felt that her mom was grumpy one, compare with her father whom more easy going. When they lived with their parent at age of 5 (then kalau tak silap masa tula diorang tinggal dengan my mom). And got some issues then diorang (my cousin and her husband that times) suruh anak diorang duduk rumah sendiri jaga diri sendiri.

Yang I could remember masa Along tadika, sometimes mak ada slow talk dengan dia and dia selalu mengadu her parents selalu bergaduh.Sebab mak perasan budak berdua tu (Angah and Along) selalu termenung setiap kali kat datang rumah after tadika.

Masa tu I baru je 17 ke 18 kut sebab beza I n Along 12 years.And after balik sekolah I selalu suruh diorang simpan kasut sekolah and mandi. kalau I balik tengahari pastu tengok diorang still with their uniform, siap I akan membebel. Cos my sister dia memang dah set mind after tadika, simpan kasut, mandi, makan pastu tengok tv. Bila I balik tengok my sister dah settle down tapi budak berdua tu masih dalam tadika uniform, siap I akan marah.

I ingat lagi banyak issues masa Along and Angah tinggal rumah my mom, my sister ada lelah then bile Abg Mi (their father) cakap Angah sakit sebab menjangkit dari my sis, my parents marah then after a while my mom dah tak nak jaga lagi diorang.

But, its is past kan and family tied is forever. We forgive and forget and after that we become normal again like we used to. 

After read her blog, I know that she is normal. Angah, if I could say this to you;

Angah, 

Tak semua penceraian tu kejam. Along, angah dan adik kena terima hakikat even ibu dan ayah tak bersama lagi, tipula diorang tu dah hilang rasa sayang to each other. Diorang dah takde jodoh, kita kena terima.

Angah I feel that result yang Angah dapat tu ermmm 'it is notAngah'. I mean Angah can do it better. Salah tak if I say your family influence of this. Angah jangan fikir sangat. Kita kene ke depan.

Kalau Angah dapat masuk U nanti Angah belajar la betul-betul dan suatu ari nanti Angah akan jumpa soul mate Angah where you could share your life with.

Angah, kalau ibu tak rapat dengan Angah tak semestinya ibu tak sayang dengan Angah. I know Kak Ana since small. I don't blame her for what she now because tegokla macamana atuk Angah dulu tak jaga ibu. Ibu Angah struggle with life, tiap pagi bangun pukul 4-5 pagi cari duit because she want to be have better life. Sampai sekarang I tengok Kak Ana masih macamtu. Kadang-kadang I doa biarla Kak Ana ni kahwin dengan orang kaya ke so dia tak payah struggle lagi.

Tok Uda pun selalu pesan kat Kak Ana supaya tak payah kerja keras sangat. Dunia ni fana, hidup ni sementara. Kak Ana ni ikut suka dia je, dia degil, susah nak dengar cakap orang, Angah pun tau ibu Angah macamana.

I tak tahu nak bahasakn diri I ni apa dengan korang sebab I ni makcik korang but I always pesan jangan pangil Mak Long ke apa ke, I tak suka. You all berdua (Along and Angah) ikut je, panggil I 'Kak Yong'. Hahahahahha

Dahla I tak mo sedih-sedih lagi. I just hope you all  (Alongm Angah dan adik) wil find your own way and live happily.

Daaaaa!!!!!!

7 Wonders of the World

kisah rumput dan orang yang di sayangi

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am. Dialog di antara pelajar dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini: 

Pelajar: Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang? Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan? 

Cikgu: Oh, awak nak tahu ke? Emmm…baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye…mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya. 

Pelajar: Baiklah…apa yang saya harus buat? 

Cikgu: Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas sekarang juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput di situ dan sambil memandang rumput di depan kamu, pilih mana yang PALING cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang PALING cantik yang berada di depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itu bawa balik ke kelas. 

Pelajar: Ok. Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh. 

Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut. 

Pelajar: Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik? 

Pelajar: Oh, tadi saya berjalan di atas rumput dan sambil memandang rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik. Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya tak jumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik. 

Cikgu: Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa dengan seseorang yang kita sayang, janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada di depan kita sebaik-baiknya. Janganlah kita menoleh ke belakang lagi kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak lagi berulang. Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang itu, kita boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut. Dan ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan paling baik pada MULAnya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi. KECUALILAH jika perhubungan tersebut tak boleh diselamatkan lagi, maka barulah kita mulakan sekali lagi. Maka sayangilah orang yang berada di depan kita dengan tulus dan ikhlas

Everything will be fine..i guess!

Seminggu sudah saya tak update blog, well, ada banyak benda saya telah buat the whole weekend. Last Friday, I've sent my father to klia. He was doing his umrah and hopefully my father and my mom can perform their haj as soon as possible. My mom will do her umrah next month, insyaAllah. Apsal pergi asing-asing? Diorang pergi ikut group, group lelaki pergi dulu headed by Dato' then geng perempuan pulak headed by Datin. Apa-apa jela. 

My pray that my father and all his siblings will get umrah yang mabrur, insyaAllah.

So weekend I just get back lepak time with family.

Routine hidup masih macam biasa dan tiada yang luar biasa cuma kadang-kadang dugaan hidup ini memerlukan kita untuk terus bersabar dan meneruskan kehidupan adalah penting!

Macam myself and life simple aje, balik kerja then mandi ke whatever tidur, esok pergi kerja balik. But in office sometimes politics make me sick. Contoh today, lunch time ada somebody yang belanja boss and the crew means rakan terdekat diorang la. The foods were in pantry! Then staff like me whom nothing to do with politics, tengok jela kut. Unless ada sisa berlebihan, they will ask us makan. Kelakar!

Alhamdulilah, I still have money to go for lunch. Tak kebulur pun. I tak hairan la people! I don't give a damn pun but sometimes it just hurt, that's all which I will never ever forget. Then I realized so much that if you have money, you can buy everything! Yes, almost everything but not friends, not friendship.

I always remind myself bersyukur la ape ada, syukur please tetapi fitrah manusia yang tak pernah nak puas dengan apa yang ada kan. Inside me, ada banyak lgi quality yang I kena improve kan.

And kadang-kadang apa yang kita rancang tu tak seperti yang di harapkan tu yang sedih dan pahit untuk di telan. Yela, with thought that after marriage, life will be ok or better and has no problems was not easy. My marriage is not easy for me. Ada onak duri dan ranjau and some old say biasala, kawin kan! Ye, permulaan yang sangat mencabar. Two different people living in the same roof and sometimes I feel that I have no more freedom as I used to have when I was single. Perasaan biasa kut for a new mom, for a new wife, I guess.

Okla its just too long for me to write today and hopefully everything will be fine, I guess.

marketing

Semalam saya ke kelas marketing. Dr tu (Dr. Zarina if I am not mistaken) ok, buat lawak but I have to be careful jugak sebab I know that this lecturer even they seems nice, attendance kena jaga, kena stood out dalam kelas, kalau tak memang dapat B jela, jangan harap lebih.

I imagine that I am going to be the only one senior dalam kelas tu but there are another senior jugak, Ramai! Ada ina, raja and maya tak datang, hafiz, zura, lin, kak yati, pastu ada a few classmates qmt haritu. Tapi I paling senior sebab 2008 tu! Tak boleh blah! Hahahahah.

I pun dah setelkan my payment for by using epf, so tinggal nak pass the slips to itm je, I nak hantar this friday la kut. Kelas marketing tu overall ok, takde pressure sangat and I am happy.

Harini ada celebration sa yang ke21 tapi I did not bring my camera tapi kalau ada (from camera ofis) I will upload the pictures.

21??? Its very long journey, eheheheeh!

Happy Anniversary company!

email abang ezam pada hari jumaat lepas

Di ofis saya ada seorang abang yang macam pervert, suka nak menggatal dengan staff baru sampai boleh di kategorikan sebagai sexual harassment. Gurau dia yang kadang-kadang staff baru boleh interpret sebagai gatal. Nama dia Ezam. 

Tapi sebenarnya dia takde niat pun dan we get to used his behavior. Maybe for new staff takkan boleh terima that kind of attitude. He sometimes like to email us ntahla tak taula ape benda yang dia cuba sampaikan, macam-macam. Hari ni email dia macamni:-

 

Kadang-kala kita tidak pernah fikir kesusahan orang lain kerana kita hanya sibuk memikirkan tentang kesenangan diri kita sahaja.

Kadang-kala kita hanya memikirkan kesenangan orang lain tetapi kita tidak pernah memikirkan tentang kesusahan mereka oleh kerana sebab itu.

Kadang-kala kita tidak pernah fikir kesusahan orang lain kerana untuk menyenangkan kita kerana kita hanya memikirkan tentang diri... kita sahaja.

Kadang-kala kita hanya fikir kesusahan kita sahaja tetapi apabila kita sudah senang kita tidak memikirkan untuk membantu orang lain.

Wanita yang semakin kaya dengan solehahnya semakin mahal.

Lelaki yang semakin mahal dengan solehnya semakin kaya.

Tetapi mereka akan semakin murah apabila semakin nakal di antara kedua-duanya dan semakin miskin akhlaqnya.

Huhhhh, berbeza sungguh!

Macam takde kena mengena email and the quote tu but its fine. I like the quote. Sometimes thewrong choices bring us the right places. Yup, the wrong choices for me maybe bring me the right place right now kan. We never knew because I never expecting myself to do an accountant job as I prefer to be a lawyer once upon a time.

me and myself

Salam and good morning.

Lately I've been facing emotional disorder (macam orang sakit jiwa la plak). No it is not any psychological disorder ke ape ke just emotional not stable at the moment. 

Sebab utamanya tak dapat habiskan MBA (obviously) plus my daughter cirit-birit hari tu. Then semlam Khamis I dapat gastrik. I punya perangai if I stress, I akan dapat gastrik. Eh, apa kaitan? Yes, it is true, kalau anda terlampau stress, ia akan mengakibatkan gastrik. Eh, apa-apa la

So today, I go to office and tried to cheer up a little bit.

I start working here (SA) 3rd January 2007 and dah 5 years gone. This year it is gonna be 6 years of commitment. Sebenarnya I dah fed up and bosan counting numbers, buat full sets of account then end up every month doing report for the sake of five years. I am boring!

Therefore, I continue my MBA dengan harapan sebesar-besarnya untuk berhenti dan buat lecturing. Then after I still have to carry out one more paper, I was like, aaarrrghhhhhhhh!!

"Tanda-tanda seseorang mengalami stress juga boleh dikesan melalu psikologikal yang ditunjukkan seperti mudah berasa bimbang, keliru, kurang daya tumpuan, sukar kawal diri, sukar hendak tidur, perubahan emosi seperti sering berasa kecewa, mewujudkan permusuhan, rasa tidak berdaya, cepat marah, & lemah semangat"

Ni I quote from one blog (I cannot remember). I just wanted to highlight the issues on mewujudkan permusuhan. Knowing me memang I am not the type of mewujudkan permusuhan tapi I guess 5 years kerja kat sini merubah the whole me.

Situasi pagi tadi:-

Kak A (poyo kakak ni sebab dia ingat dia lawa. : Eeeeee, apsal awak pakai tudung bawal? Igat macam Norjuma ke

Me  : Eh, suka hati sayala, tudung bawal ke ape ke

Kak A pun pergi dengan muka poyo. Depan orang ramai saya sound tepek dia.

Pastu tiba-tiba Zana (ofismate) cakap 'Dee, apsal ko pakai tudung bawal? Pakai la tudung pari ke'?

(Ni mengejek ni)

Dee jawab 'Eh suka hati akula nak pakai tudung bawal ke apa ke, ko tu baru pakai tudung tak sampai setahun dah kecoh'

Dee dan Zana ketawa, tapi memang di dengari Miss S yang BFF dengan Kak A.

So, what do you expect? I memang nak sangat pun Miss S bagitau Kak A sebab tak kisahla orang suka saya ke tak.

Memang sikap I dah berubah dari dulu sampai sekarang. Dulu, nak cerita mengumpat ni bukan myself la, I bukan jenis mengumpat sana sini, tapi sejak kerja ni, dah jadi hobi pulak sebab  seronok plak mengumpat kan (syaitan syaitan!!!!)

I macam dah boleh accept la I have to repeat marketing paper because I wanted to get better cgpa insyaAllah and it will look good into my portfolio right?

I cerita pun macam dah lompat-lompat. Tapi mewujudkan permusuhan tu sebenarnya ada kene mengena dengan my studies. Since I pun dah banyak sakitkan hati orang, I promise myself to be a better person, to be good, to mengurangkan umpat, keji orang lain sebab agaknya ini semua balasan yang Tuhan bagi sebab perangai I yang dah banyak berubah. Tambahkan amalan ibadat and respect to others. So biarlah apa orang buat kat I, I will remail like past, biar je. Less hurt people and less hurt myself.

I just hope berkat doa mak ayah to me and my family, our family akan ceria, akan bertambah rezeki dan diberkati Allah. I also hope that my hubby will be diberikan rezeki Allah and success in his business. I know he struggle with his business, company debt, support family and all those stuff. 

Azam tahun lepas untuk habiskan MBA masih tak tercapai so I forward to this year. From now on, my resolution this year will be (belum lambat lagi kan?):-

1) Habiskan MBA

2) Pregnant on May because I wanted to deliver baby on February 2013. Hahahaha. Ni takkan di postpone!

3) Kelas kan habis June 2012 so result akan keluar on August/Sept. Dapat je result I akan apply for lecturer. I dun want to think about PhD first. If my husband's business run well, I will continue studies, if it isn't I will apply for lecturing.

4) Kumpul duit sebab nak hantar Marsya play school on January 2013 (3thn)

Tadi masa I jumpa admin gbs, she advice me that everything yang terjadi ni ada hikmahnya so kena terima and lebih berhati-hati pada masa hadapan. I nak move forward, I won't move backward and promise to myself that I will do everything and whatever it takes to finish what I've started. Nak jadi isteri solehah dan ubah diri sendiri, jadi lebih baik, aminnnn.

Huhhhh, so now, I nak sambung balik kerja-kerja ofis yang tertangguh ni dan I nak siapkan kerja bersunnguh-sungguh. Enjoy life and appreciate for what I have!

Daaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! Happy weekends!

                                     

what women want

Hi, today is women's day (schedule entry) and I've red and article combining celebrities of women and asking them what women want. Basically I would say women needs many many things! Women creature are hard to be satisfied (I mean things eh not sex) Sex maybe in the second place kut, uhhhhhhhh! One of the celebrities was the famous blogger, vivy (proudduck).

They (the women) has many different views, different thinking and needs. 

This article asked them 5 same questions and below was the article:-

Today is International Women’s Day, and we want this day to be all about women ... and what women want.

And what better way to find out what women deem important than to just ask them.

We started the ball rolling by posing five questions to these six women on what matters to them. They represent a new generation of women who are confident and talented, and who are not afraid to define for themselves who they are and what they want to be.

They don’t adhere to conventional wisdom, and shrug off old stereotypes.

Beauty queen Soo Wincci is set on going all the way to Hollywood, and is preparing for the big time by pursuing her PhD in business so she will be able to manage her own career. Between the make up sessions and shoots, Soo was sharing tips with the newly-crowned Miss Malaysia-Universe Kimberley Leggett, and their conversation revolved around how important it is to pursue tertiary studies.

Singers Liyana Fizi and Elvira Arul are dedicated to their music, and they have stayed faithful to their respective genres because that’s where their hearts lie.

Vivy Yusof is pint-sized but big on dreams and entrepreneurial spirit. The British law graduate eschewed the usual career route and set up an online shop with a partner.

Phillipa Yoong won her first gold medal in water skiing at the Jakarta Sea Games when she was 18, and grabbed another two medals at the recent Sea Games after a 15-year hiatus and giving birth to two daughters.

Whatever their chosen path, and wherever it has led them, these six women maintain that what matters most to them are their loved ones and pursuing their passions.

We’d also like our women readers to tell us what they want, so please share with us your answers to the five questions (see Your turn now on page 3).

Liyana Fizi

Liyana Fizi, 29, is the darling of the independent music scene, charming local music lovers since her time as the frontwoman of Estrella. She recently released her first solo album Between The Lines. She tweets at twitter.com/liyanafizi.

1. What makes you happy?

Being surrounded by love of family and friends, making music, and making travel plans.

2. What is most important to you now?

The most important thing to me, is to keep learning new ways to live my life to its full potential.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

At 19, the most important thing to me then was finishing my degree, and to start earning my own money.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

The top item would be to see the world while playing music.

5. I want ... An electric guitar.

Elvira Arul

Elvira Arul, 31, is a jazz singer who hit the musical stage last year as the co-lead in Dreamgirls... a long way from the days of busking in her college. She is passionate about her music, and championing various causes. She recently shaved her head in support of people with cancer, as it is a cause that is close to her heart. Follow her on twitter attwitter.com/elvirasoul.

1. What makes you happy?

A smile. A hug. A look, these things make me happy. Spending time with my loved ones. Music :)

LOVE! Love makes me happy ... and pandas!

2. What is most important to you now?

Love. My parents. My partner. My family. Music. God. Standing up for the voiceless.

People loving each other and showing it outwardly. People not judging each other, but helping each other out.

3.What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Everyone and everything! My career, what people thought of me (now only what my loved ones think of me matters), God. Church.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

Singing with all my favourite artistes in my lifetime. Getting more empathy for issues pertaining to women’s plights!

For cases of violence against women to be zero!

For our sexual rights to be on par with the world.

For there to be no more people dying from cancer.

5. I want ...

For there to be more empathy in the world.

For human beings to show more love to one another.

For the homeless to have a roof over their heads, shelter from the storm, and food in their tummies.

For children to have a childhood!

Kimberley Leggett, 18, is embarking on an exciting journey. The teenager has moved to Kuala Lumpur from Penang to live on her own, and will be starting college soon ... and working hard to prepare for the Miss Universe pageant later this year. Follow her ontwitter.com/kimmyleggs.

1. What makes you happy?

Simple pleasures are the world’s greatest indulgences, I feel. Whether it be a long bath after a hard day’s work, watching TV or being surrounded by family and friends at celebrations or for dinners. I think it’s when my life is in equilibrium – it’s stress free, and in balance.

2. What is most important to you now?

My family and friends. Without them, I wouldn’t have a firm foundation or wonderful support. No success would have been achieved without them, and it’s their shoulders to cry on, their hugs and their encouragement which have picked me up each time I thought I couldn’t go on.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Ten years ago I was eight, ha ha, so I think then it would have been doing well in school, playing with my pets, having a lot of friends, and not being too mischievous! Simple things that an eight-year-old would find important or to be the world’s biggest problems – school, friends and getting into trouble!

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

There are so many things on it! Top of the list is probably, get killer abs for Miss Universe 2012 this year(!) Speak five languages, visit the seven wonders of the world, Christian Louboutin shoes, completing a marathon ... the list goes on really, it’s a rather deep bucket. :)

5. I want … To always be happy, no matter what life throws at me. As there’s “always sunshine after the rain” as they say, my hope is that all women in Malaysia can take this day as a time to celebrate their smile!

Phillipa Yoong

Phillipa Yoong, 33, is under the blazing sun and in the water at least three times a week. The water skier who recently won double gold medals at the Palembang Sea Games trains even more frequently nearer competitions. And even if she retires from competition, Yoong says she will stay active because it’s a way of life for her. The mother of two is also the president of Ibu, a family resource group. She tweets at twitter.com/pcyoong.

1. What makes you happy?

Playing with my kids. Reading a good book.

2. What is most important to you now?

A happy, healthy and loving family.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

The next party.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

More time with my husband and for my husband – he’s really busy!

5. I want ... World peace, an end to all suffering, healthy food and for everyone to join the slow food movement.

Vivy Yusof

Vivy Yusof, 26, likes nice things and shopping, and has channelled that passion into running the largest online shopping site in Malaysia, fashionvalet.net.

It has been a lot of hard work, but the British graduate thrives on the challenge of gathering local designers on her site. She writes a monthly column on fashion for The Star’s R.AGE, and tweets attwitter.com/vivyyusof.

1. What makes you happy?

Good sleep! With work and all, we tend to take rest and sleep for granted, but this won’t be good in the long run. I always feel sluggish when I don’t have enough rest or sleep.

2. What is most important to you now?

Slowly I am learning that the most important thing to me is health. I am hearing more and more people my age having cancer, and I feel that I should respect myself more to strike a balance between work and play. We can be millionaires but if we are too sick to enjoy the fruits of our labour, there really is no point. Work hard, but know when your body is aching.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Handbags.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

I am pretty greedy so my bucket is pretty deep. Among the things I want is a happy family, good health, an awesome career, a successful online shopping business, and being able to afford a comfortable lifestyle on my own. The material things like more clothes and handbags goes without saying, but all of that will come with hard work. Oh! I also would like to travel more often.

5. I want ... A balanced lifestyle. I want to be able to divide my time between work, family, friends and me time.

Soo Wincci

Soo Wincci, 26, has calluses on her palms, and her legs bear bruises from pole dancing. But it’s a small price to pay to get her fit and ready to break into the Taiwanese entertainment scene later this year. She recently released her Chinese album, and will be launching her Malay EP soon. Her web site is soowincci.com, and she tweets at twitter.com/soowincci.

1. What makes you happy?

Making others happy.

2. What is most important to you now?

Passion and goals in life.

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

Family.

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

To make Malaysia proud.

5. I want... to achieve all my dreams and goals in life and keep pushing my limits to higher levels from time to time.

So what actually I want? Let me answer those questions:-

1. What makes you happy?

I am happy if all my routine and what i plan goes smoothly, in order and no delay

2. What is most important to you now?

It is important for me to look good, to being pretty all the time so that my confidence level will be high and no way of depressed and down, being respect by others and be able to share my experiences to junior

3. What was most important to you 10 years ago?

10 years ago, it is really important for me to get in the serious relationships because I really feel with an honest relationships, we will have some inspiration in our lives to move and something to achieve besides to have a very good family (which I already have) and bunches of goods friends (to enjoy!!)

4. What is on top of your bucket (wish) list?

Currently, I want more salary because:-

1) Planning to have added family (preggie by this year)

2) To send my daughter to play school

3) To finish my marketing paper (and MBA too)

4) To have own car (currently share it with husband)

5) To have bhuge wardrobe with fully vogue-fashionable dress etc, bunches of colour handbags and shoes so I can match them with my outfits, branded make-up, hohohohoho!

5. I want...to be more happy in life, thankful to Allah for what I have. Always remember phrase of hadith which means "Bagaimana anda mahu mandapat rezeki lebih besar jika anda tidak tahu mensyukuri nikmat kecil yang Allah beri" 

Subhanallah, bersyukur dengan apa yang ada!